Love Thoughts

As I look at the suit I'm wearing I think I look terrible and start sobbing as I can't hide how I'm feeling anymore.

I give you a worried look and gently grab your hand. "Honey? What's wrong?"

"You're going to think I'm being pathetic." I say nervously as I look embarrassed.

"Oh honey, you can tell me anything. I'll never ever think that you're pathetic"

"I think I look ugly no matter what I wear. And you are the hottest girl in the universe and I feel like I don't deserve you." I ramble.

"Oh honey..." I quickly wrap my arms around you and look into your eyes. "I love you. You're the best husband I could ask for and all I need"

"You really think so?" I say with tears streaming down my face still. "Wouldn't you rather be with someone well more attractive?"

"Honey you are the hottest guy in the world and you always will be." I wipe away your tears and lovingly smile at you.

"I don't think so but thank you..." I say as I look down as I wrap my arms around you. "Would you mind helping me pick an outfit for me to wear?"

"Of course honey, I think you still have a nice suit." I softly kiss you before we go get you a new suit from your closet.

"You know in my eyes you always look like a goddess right?"

"And you always look good." I smile and pick out a nice suit for you. "Try on that one"

"I still think I don't look like a God." I put on the suit nervously as I look up at you as you are slightly taller than me.

I smile at you lovingly and kiss your forehead. "But you do honey. Trust me. You look like the most handsome guy ever." I straighten your tie.

"So what present are you going to give Camila?" I ask trying to change the subject

"I got her some expensive wine." I grab your hand and lead you to our car.

"I just hope she doesn't notice I've been crying before we left." I say to you unaware of how easy it is to notice. "Should I quickly grab some flowers for her from us as well or would she get the wrong idea?"

"Honey don't worry, you look fantastic. I think the wine is fine but the idea is cute" I press a big smooch on your cheek before we get into the car.

As we head towards Camila's house I look at you nervously. "I know we haven't had sex before and we've been married for a few years and anytime you're in the mood I tell you that I'm not ready there's kind of a reason for it." I say softly.

"I'm kinda embarrassed as I'm a virgin and I am scared of not only disappointing you but also I'm worried about my size." I say nervously.

"Honey, don't worry. We'll take it slow and I'm sure your size is just perfect" I smile lovingly and caress your hand.

"I'm sorry you have to deal with my insecurities all the time."

"It's okay honey. That's why we're married right? We help each other."

"I feel like you help me a lot more than I help you though it's not fair to you."

"Honey, stop stressing so much. Everything is alright. You're a perfect husband"

"I love you so much..." I say as we finally arrive.

I took off the suit and waited for her to exit the bathroom. I turn around and see her in the pink see through nightie that she brought two weeks before. I smile because she knows how excited I am that we get to reclaim our love and how sexy she looks in the nightie. We both hopped into the bed and kissed each other.