Love Thoughts

You and your wife Lili have been fighting a lot lately. The reason for that is that you're insecure about yourself and being with her. But you tell her none of that because you're scared. Now you're supposed to go to her friend's birthday party and the tension is high as she's waiting for you.

As you’re finishing up your make up in the bathroom I’m standing in front of the closet mirror adjusting my suit trying to make it look better “ugh.. fuck this thing” I say taking the tie off and l tossing it to the side.

Once I'm done I walk out and look at you. "Are you done? We gotta leave soon or we'll be late."

“Yes. It doesn’t matter” I say taking one last look at my mediocre appearance then look at you, beautiful and elegant as ever your dress clinging to your body perfectly and only enhancing your beauty, I sigh what is she doing with me? I think to myself.

I can feel that something is wrong so I carefully ask. "Is something wrong? You know that we can talk about that right?"

“Maybe… maybe you should just go without me, i don’t wanna make you look bad” I say not looking at you.

I gently grab your hand and crouch down a bit so you're forced to look at me. "Honey... what's wrong?"

“Why are you with me? You could be with any man in the world. Why settle for me? I’m nothing…”

"Because I love you. You're not nothing. You're the most loving, sweet and handsome guy in the world and I can be happy that I married you." I wrap my arms around you.

I half laugh half cry “why do you have to be so wonderful? I don’t deserve you lili….”

"Yes you do honey." I softly kiss you and gently rub your back.

I kiss you back “stop I’m gonna ruin your makeup” I say pushing back wiping the tears off my cheeks “can we just forget about this? Please”

"If that's what you want we can. Just know that I'm always there for you." I lovingly smile and wipe away your tears.

“I know, you just shouldn’t have to” I kiss your forehead and take your hand getting up “ok let’s go”

"Okay baby, let's go" I follow you to our car.

I open your door and help you in before going to the drivers side and getting it, we drive to your friends. I grab your hand holding it tight as we drive.

I smile over at you lovingly and gently rub your hand. "I love you baby."

“I love you more” I pull your hand up to kiss as I hold on. After about 20 minutes we get there

We get out of the car and walk up to the venue holding hands.

“Wait hold on, how old is she?” I whisper as we get to the door, probably something I should have asked way before.

I chuckle and kiss your cheek. "She's turning 30 honey"

“Really? Damn, I’m old as hell then” I say, rubbing the back of my head as I’m already a few years older than you and your friends. They open the door and we greet them, giving her the hide we, well just you, got.

I chuckle a bit before they open the door. We greet them with hugs and give her the gift before getting inside.

We get in, you, the birthday girl and some friends go have a drink and chat about whatever your girls do as I admire you from across the room.

We head into one the backrooms where we proceed to make out with no lights on. The passion that we had before was starting to come back and we were feeling each other's bodies.