The First Female Alpha

I was wondering the lone path, there was no way that the pack would ever accept me having a female lead beside me. I was the only child of my parents, who are the alpha and Luna of our pack. It just so happens that I being female everyone expected that I would choose a male mate. But that is just not the case as I am lesbian. I have always been attracted to the females of our pack. One problem… none of the females in my pack were into girls. I would always go out into the town and find a girl to have some fun with, usually out of towners. I just knew that there was never any chance in hell that the pack would accept this form of relationship to lead the pack. I felt doomed to mate with a male and never be happy with my place. I have contemplated leaving the pack so many times, but I know that I have a responsibility to my pack to lead them. And I know that this day is coming soon. I do not feel ready to take on all the other pack members’ ideals of the old pack mentality. There are so many things that I would like to change for our pack like the idea of not being able to be with someone of the same sex. I find this whole idea stupid. I was not sure that the pack knew that I was gay but they did know that I had never dated any of the eligible male members. No one dared ask me about it though. The only people in the pack that knew about me were my parents who were accepting and knew how I felt. They knew that I wished to change the pack mentality about different things. They are very supportive of the fact that I wanted to make some changes and to have another female lead beside me.

Tonight there is a pack meeting with the elders… tonight I will be speaking up for the first time as well, making the first step in becoming the first female alpha. Tonight will be the night that I let the elders know that I am not going to be making the decision to be with a male member, that I was gay. For now, I will be gathering my thoughts and preparing for tonight’s meeting. I knew that I would need to approach this with a voice of reason but also one of power. I knew that the elders would respect what would be changed as they always have, they knew also of the power that my family holds.

As I am walking down the path to the sacred meeting place I go over what I am going to tell the council of the elders. I was the only one on the path when I got that feeling like things were going to go even better than planned. I felt a sense of serenity and peace. I looked up to the beautiful moon, our Goddess, and gave her thanks for being with one of her children on this momentous night. When I arrived at the sacred grove all of the elders and my parents were already there just chatting among themselves. When I walked in there was almost a dead silence, and all of them turned to look at me as they walked to their seats. The meeting had started. My parents Alpha Candra Ivailo and Luna Cosmina; along with the six other elders three female and 3 male. The Council members (from highest rank) are Onacona, Amadahy, Atsila, Wohali, Inola, & Atohi My parents made this change when they became the leaders of the pack so that the females had equal say in the pack as well. Now that we were seated and ready to begin it was time that I made who I am clear to everyone and plans clear.

“As you all know tonight is the night that I start taking on some of the responsibilities as the upcoming Alpha. I know that some of the pack members are not as accepting of the fact that I am to be the first female alpha. As I am sure that some of you may not approve of me after what I have to say here tonight. That is ok if you so choose you are free to leave the pack with no repercussions. As the time that I take the reins will be a new beginning and a new era for our pack. There are several things that I would like to discuss tonight. I am sure that you may not agree with these new rules and regulations, but before you decide that you wish to longer be a part of this pack I would like for you all to hear me out.

The first thing that I need you all to know is the reason that you have never seen me with a male of our pack or why I have never dated one. I am into women.” At this moment you can hear a pin drop as they all turn to look at my parents. All eyes wide and judging. My parents do not look surprised to them and I think that is what surprises the elders the most. My anger flares. “There is no need to look at my parents with judgment nor me but if you would like to judge someone, put it all on me. My parents have known about me for a long time and accept me for who I am. We have talked extensively about this night, about whether or not I needed to do this. Ultimately this was my decision to be made as I will be the new alpha. And that in itself is something you were all opposing the moment I was born but yet you have all come to accept that I will be alpha, and for that I am grateful. So at this time I am asking that you take the time to think about this fact. There are other changes as well… I plan on taking this one day at a time and opening our pack up to the others like me. Others who are gay, bisexual, or whatever they identify with. I know that there are other wolves out there that are like me that have been shunned by their pack because of old world thinking. I want to change the outlook for those who have lost their pack. Yes, I do know that there will be some repercussions from this decision from other packs. But if we stand together and show them that we are stronger together and fight for the others that are like me then we will be able to change some hearts. I am positive that we can make this change and help others. I am asking that you stand by me as you have stood by my parents. I understand that this is a big decision for all of you, that this changes something for you as well. I know that bringing new members into our pack will be risky, possibly frightening for some. We also have to look at the pros as well. New members means we gain strength and power. These new members will be able to help us in the coming years to make the changes easier for other packs. The more that we can educate others the more we are able to become one pack for the world with different factions. No, that does not mean that I am after power.” I see some faces lighten up and smile, that makes me feel better. “I know that this is a lot to take in. I am asking you to stand with me and help me with the changes. If you need time to think this over that is fine. But I do ask that you not discuss this with your families at this time. I will give you three days to think about things and then we can go from there. So, in three days we will meet back here in the sacred grove. I want to thank all of you for being here and listening to what I had to say. Most importantly thank you for not fighting with me or speaking over me. When next we meet you can tell me what you feel and your decision then.” I look at my parents and take my leave. As I walked down the path to head back toward the house I started hearing a few murmurs, nothing distinct. Though I am thankful for that because I am not sure that I could handle what they had to say at this point, saying what I had to say tonight was hard enough. I am not sure that I could handle the hatred that would come from their mouths after knowing everyone all my life.

I know that things can be hard and that life sometimes throws everyone a curveball, but tonight I really threw a curveball at everyone. I know what I did was unorthodox from our pack, but I need to make that stand. I needed the council to understand things. I really do want to make a place for everyone to feel safe, not just others like me. I know that it will take the Council a bit to decide but I am anxious about their decision. I really don’t expect….

“Raven!” I hear my mother call my name interrupting my train of thought. “Raven!” I hear her again.

“Mom, what’s wrong, are you ok? Is Dad ok?” I am fearing something is wrong from the way she was calling out to me. Oh crap, I hope I haven’t made that much of a mess from my speech earlier. I would never forgive myself.

Mom could tell from the look on my face that I was worried and that I was willing to hurt someone over them. “Raven,” she says calmly. “There is no need to worry, we are both fine. I was just very excited to tell you the news. The Council has approved your new concept. They said that you were ready to be Alpha and they will stand behind you as they have with us. You are courageous & will be a great leader. You have the guts and the head to be the leader that we all need, and that they too think it is time for a change.”

Needless to say I am so stunned, I never expected for the Council to be so quick about getting the decision to back me.