Into the Abyss.

Is this actually him, though? Is he astral projecting right now? Is he telepathically communicating with me? This is not the first time I have heard Zabian inside of my head speaking with me and the last length of period in which this happened, it near drove me fucking crazy. I once watched a video of Zabian and his wife where-by at the end of the video, Zabian indicated that we shared a telepathic ability. And I should probably note here, that the video also insinuated that the woman sitting next to him was not Zabian’s wife at all, but his brother’s. This was then validated when I was later looking at a photo of him and his wife and my phone began to glitch. Then when the picture returned, his wife was still covered by a glitch and Zabian, was as clear as the original photo. Anyway, his eyes were soft and gentle in the video. It appeared as though he was in a natural altered state of consciousness, similar to the one that which entices within me, a state of vibrational ecstasy. As his wife was talking to the camera, Zabian was whispering to himself. I could not hear what he was saying, but his lips were moving as though he was responding to a voice inside of his head. This video was produced right after I had questioned our ability to accomplish telepathic communication. I was not sure if the message was genuine, for obvious reasons. Don’t get me wrong, when I hear his voice in this way, it is always one of pure unconditional love, encouragement, adoration and of course, the most tempting of amorous seduction. However, without any solid verbal validation from Zabian that this is actually what is taking place between us, I begin to question my sanity every time that it occurs. That horrible feeling of bewilderment floods my system again in this moment as the transpiration of this transmission arises. The original intention behind that of my instigation of self-pleasure quickly flashes through my mind and I sequentially decide, that if Zabian needs to be in my thoughts in this way, then I shall welcome it. In fact, I am going to further this with an invitation. “If this is the way that you want to make love to me Zabian, if this is what your soul needs, then go for it. My vessel is yours to enter.” With the sentiment, I roll over onto my back, to where I spread my legs and welcome penetration. However, as soon as I do, the experience immediately ceases.

Laying on my back, I am dumbfounded. “What is the purpose of this?” Taking a few deep breaths, I verbalise the question into my body and allow myself to enter into an altered state of consciousness. Without fail, Zabian’s voice once again, penetrates my thoughts. His voice is pure, blissful, wise and loving. He begins by asking me, “Do you remember when you channelled on the notion of Soul’s being multidimensional. Shaniquah?” I nod my head. “And, do you recall how it was explained to you that whilst twin-flames are not two halves of one soul, that they are indeed, originally split from that of the same soul. That whilst twin-flames soul’s, even though, are completely whole unto that of themselves, does not necessarily mean that their individual soul’s, have not split into fragments?” I nod my head again. He is speaking to the multidimensional aspects of our souls that reside through-out all of time and space, scattered through-out various realms, dimensions and plains of existence. With my understanding validated, he continues, "At this point in evolution, a multitude of souls are integrating many of their alternate aspects of being, as they become in conscious alignment with the aspect being integrated. You yourself Shaniquah, have experienced this. Yes?” I nod my head again, knowing the aspects of my soul in which he is referring to. He allows me to process the information for a moment before continuing. “If I was to inform you that I am an aspect of Zabian’s soul, a wiser aspect, how would this make you feel?” Firstly, I giggle. “How would this make you feel?” This phrase is a derivative of an incident in which occurred, when the situation with Zabian and I, first presented as it is. A nice touch to affirm that the soul with whom is communicating with me right now, is most certainly, connected to Zabian. I internally reply, “I am not sure. I would of course, definitely feel better about these experiences knowing that you are in some way, him. However, I am not sure if this would ultimately alter my feelings towards wanting these experiences to end as they currently are, and have been for the duration of our physical connection? Having said that though, if this is what you, or your aspect of Zabian’s soul needs, then I am willing to stay open to explore this. If this is what you need?” His voice pervades my auditory senses again, “Do you know why the experience came to a halt moments ago, Shaniquah?” I shake my head, unsure of what to say. He continues, “Even though you are willing to experiment with this, does it resonate with you?” I shake my head again. “No, it does not. It is not in alignment with my soul and it does not resonate with my heart. If Zabian and I are meant to unite, it is meant to happen across all levels of our being. The cause for balance across the mental, emotional, spiritual, etherical and physical layers of our being, is vital for our growth and our journey, as twin-flames.” I can sense the soul smiling. “Exactly. You were being tested to honour the calling of your soul, despite whether you feel Zabian may or may not need, anything. If you cannot stay true to yourself, how do you expect to further evolve?” I inhale deeply, “I cannot.” Feeling the presence begin to depart my awareness, I am quick to enquire, “So, has it been you all of this time? All of these paranormal happening’s, I mean. Have they all been, you?” Zabian’s voice, now sounding a little distant, responds. “I cannot disclose this information, for the knowledge will impede on your natural ability to self-evolve. I can tell you that the multidimensional aspects of both of yours, and Zabian’s soul’s, are working over-time to bring your union into fruition. Whether that be in this life-time, or the next, depends on both of you.” Once again, I quickly enquire before his presence departs, “So, do we need to integrate all of these aspects of ourselves before our union can occur?” The voice chuckles at my question. “No, Shaniquah. Some of these aspects cannot be integrated until the time of your union with Zabian, for both of your soul’s will not be in alignment with these aspects until, you unite. And other aspects, will only be integrated once you have reached union and you are continuing to evolve. Not only as individual’s, but together, as twin-flames. Do you understand?” I nod my head and smile. “Yes. Thankyou. Does this mean that I am to wait for Zabian now, or continue moving forward as I have been attempting to?” I can feel the soul looking at me with one eye-brow cocked. I then answer my own question. “I am not to continue anything that which is not in alignment with my soul, hah?” With a wink, this aspect of Zabian’s soul, dissipates from my awareness completely.

I open my eyes, content with the wisdom in which I have been provided. At least now I understand why these experiences have felt like Zabian, even if they are not being initiated by him consciously. Perhaps there have been more than one aspect of Zabian’s soul, reaching me in this way? Maybe that is why this aspect of him could not disclose this information, for I am meant to discover it on my own. My thoughts drift to the experience I had where-by a penis was in my right hand whilst in my left, the other usual sensations were taking place. Maybe, this was two aspects of Zabian’s soul, at once! Or, perhaps it may have been an aspect of my own soul, as well as an aspect of his? And, if the notion of time and space does not reign over these multidimensional aspects of our soul’s, perhaps it was Zabian whom slapped me on the arse all of those years ago, despite the fact that it took place before we had physically met!

I have always known deep inside of my heart that the divine would not allow these sexual occurrences to take place if it were not, my beloved twin-flame. So much so, that during the few moments when I misinterpreted these sexual interactions to be a ghost, or a soul other than Zabian, I interjected the experience with a line of questioning, as to whether Zabian was my twin-flame at all. Sequentially, this then became fuelled by the fact that the one thing in which I understand when it comes to the recognition of one's twin-flame, is that their yearning for one another, is derived by that of a mutual magnet. Their connection is literally, magnetic. They are magnetised to one another, on every single level. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and ethereally. If this magnet does not exist for one of the soul's in question, ultimately, this is a clear indicator that the pair are not, in actual fact twin-flames. The journey of twin-flames until that of their union in the physical, is one of coming home. Once again, with no concrete verbal validation from Zabian that this is the case for him, this prospect at times, has driven me to thinking that he is just another soul-mate.

Even with all that has just unfolded, there is still a belief very prevalent within me that intuits that on some level, Zabian has individuated to the point of his own personal evolution, where-by he is able to consciously, astral project at will. And, I also believe in him so profoundly, that the notion of him evolving his gift to the pinnacle point where-by he is able to provide me with the physical sensation of touch, is a reality that which would not surprise me at all. He is the most divine man in which I know. Pondering on this, I begin to question a knowledge in which I have already consciously conceived. “So, if this is the case, then why does the nature of him implementing his ability not resonate with my heart? If this is a form of his individuation, then why would my soul not align with supporting him in such?” Immediately, I refer back to the preceding conversation and answer that of my own inquisition. “Balance. There is no foundation of true balance when this is being initiated without the vital aspect of the physical present. Balance, is pertinent in order for us to evolve.” With the validation of my wisdom anchored into that of my being, I am posed with the potentiality of how our gifts would evolve and that which we would both be capable of, if and when balance is in fact, established? Smiling at the thought, a warmth fills my vessel as a tingling sensation emanates from that of my Crown Chakra. “Oh well, at least I now know that I am not going crazy! And, more importantly, that Zabian is definitely still alive!” For the first time in a long time, I feel a profound sense of peace within my being in regards to all that which I have endured through-out this phase of our journey and this, is more than I could dream of for myself, as I move forward.

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