Humanity Is A Portal

My desire for the truth makes me different from the rest of the population. My inner knowing, that life does not have to be so full of hatred and pain, is also a sign of my difference to the rest. I am sure that I am not the only person who has this feeling, but I have no idea how I would find anyone else.

Centuries ago, the world fell into destruction. We are shown clips of how humanity sank and how evil was what saved us. Ironic I know. You would be surprised at how many people have become trapped in the understanding that it is evil and pain that saves us and how torture purifies them. It is as though everyone has become robotic.

I guess the bigger question is: How do I know any different? Well It started when I turned twenty one; I had spent my whole life with my parents who, like everyone else, believed that punishment and torture were now the only ways forward. My aunty came to visit days before my birthday and sat me down in quiet for a chat. She told me that there was more to life than this. She tried to wash the blood stains from my chin where I had been beaten, this was the first act of kindness that anyone had ever shown me. That moment felt so surreal. It was as though I felt warm inside. She then took my hand in hers and told me that one day I will understand. She held my hand so tightly and I saw a tear falling down her cheek. I knew she was not in any pain so the tears were different. Tears that I know now to be of love. She handed me a locket and told me to never let anyone see it.

As amazing as that moment was, my parents came in and saw her holding my hand and so they rang this alarm and she was dragged away. The moments before this happened she told me to not show any emotions. I sat and watched them grab her and pull her by her hair across the room and down the stairs. I heard them whip her outside in the street in front of onlookers who seemed to be chanting words of hatred to her.

This type of humiliation is what we are use to enduring anytime someone wants to. I could see that this was different though. Something had been activated inside of me and I could feel this sense of love and strength and yet pain and sorrow. I had never had feelings before. Well I had a few, I had this sense of knowing there was more, but not sure what that meant until seeing her. She was not like anyone else.

My father grabbed me by my arm and threatened me with a day in a gas chamber if I did not tell him everything she told me. The gas chamber was this tube that you would stand in and would be filled with a gas. It knocks you out for several hours and when you wake up you are physically sick and suffer with a headache. They leave you like that for an hour and then you hear a dreaded pounding of a drum before they fill you up with more gas that knocks you out again. Everyone has had to endure this at some point. At the end of the day, they release you and give you a cup of liquid. The liquid takes about fifteen minutes to work, but then you feel cured and they tell you that you have been purified and you should feel honoured.

So, I told him that she wiped my face. For this I got punched in the lip again to make it bleed. They wanted me to know that she had discredited me by trying to clean me. Then I told him that she held my hand and told me one day I will know more. For this I had to have my hand burnt on the hob of the oven and then my ear was blasted with a loud noise. This was to purify my hand and ear again. This sound in my ears, made such a loud ringing for hours later. I could not hear properly out of it for days.

I knew that I had no choice but to say these things to them, but I did not mention the locket. I kept the locket in my trouser pocket and I promised myself that I would figure out all that was happening.

A psychic side of me started to waken up. I knew this because I started to have dreams and no one had dreams. We were always told that if a dream comes through to us we need to be purified. I chose to keep this dream to myself and slowly but surely I started to get visions of a better life.

These visions showed me that the world was not always full of broken building and rubble and that people were not always tortured. The streets were full of laughter and not anger and pain. It took a while, but soon the locket popped into my dreams. I had so many visions of it, but to understand it took me a while.

A quest was laid out ahead of me. The weird species that controlled our planet and the way that we were, had a much bigger locket being kept under lock and key. This locket was as big as a doorway and it was in a cage. The locket was the key to humanity. Inside this locket are the remaining few people that were unable to let go of feelings and love. They were banished inside this locket with all the emotions of humanity. If I can take the little locket to the big locket and channel enough energy, I will be able to open it and no matter what, humanity would be restored.

The biggest question for me though, was how would I ever get to the point where I can enter this room. I would have to be one of the trusted guards and that would mean I have to punish people and tell on people. Now that my humanity is more in tact, it is so hard to see people being punished.

From the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to sleep, all i hear is the sound of someone screaming or crying. People shout at strangers for no reason and pick fights with anyone. People are not really human anymore. It is as though they are just beasts. You have to walk over rubble and you are lucky if you have somewhere that you can hide during bad weather. We are kept in tall buildings that all look the same and you have to be in at a set time and asleep at a set time and everyone wakes at a set time. Everything is controlled by these weird creatures. If you are even a moment late for something, then you are punished. If you are caught peeping out of the window onto the streets below during the night then you will be punished.

I have actually managed to peep out a few times and I only got caught the once. The weird species sit there together making noises and playing with fire. The fire never burns them, they somehow can touch it and it makes their hard black shells darker and stronger.

These creatures are varied shapes: some spider like, some beetle like and they can be both big or small. The bigger ones hold more power and I think the smaller ones are like the runt of the litter. They can speak our language, but also have their own which we can't understand.

Focusing more on today, I am now at a place on my journey to freedom, where I am able to get through the pain that I am causing, by balancing it with the knowledge that I will restore peace on earth. I will be able to make everybody love again and when this happens, we will be able to banish evil forever.

There will be no more pain and suffering and no hatred towards each other. The colour will come back to this land, people will want to re build their homes, but better than ever before. Everyone will have that right to all that is around. There will be no more stealing or snatching, no more being told that you have to earn it. Everyone will be treated as equal because everyone has lost so much already. Humanity will be stronger and better than before. It would be a blessing. No one around me right now would ever understand this. They have been punished so many times and taught to endure so much negativity and pain, that this would mean me sentenced to death if I even tried to explain it to someone.

It has meant that I have left behind my parents. They are struggling in the same routines as always, but I can almost feel that little sense of some emotion from my mother when I call her to tell her that I am getting doing well and I am now appointed a spokesman for the creatures. She will not show her emotion, but I know that she is proud and I sense her holding back. Maybe one day she can hug me tight like a mother should.

My dreams became more and more prominent. I would feel like dreaming was the best time of day. During y dreams I get to speak with my aunty, who of course, comes to me from spirit. She was killed shortly after being dragged away from me, but she tells me that she was aware of what would happen and that it was all for good purpose. There are some amazing fields and beaches that are shown to me in my sleep. Children making things and playing instead of being forced to fight and get stronger. They are able to sit and laugh at tv, rather than watching the same clips of how the elements suddenly started destroying the earth and these creature who now control us, managed to calm these elements down. In my dreams the world is such a better place and so harmonious, where as in reality it is about brainwashing and control.

The one thing that I think will be extra special, is that when the locket opens and humanity is let out, it starts to cause physical pain to the creatures who inhabit earth right now. It burns their armour off of them and they start to shrivel like a rotten tomato. The only way to save themselves from extinction is to climb inside the locket which humanity is released from. In turn the locket takes the form of what looks like a black hole and then it shrinks into nothing.

The moral of the dreams that my aunty and fellow spirits show me, is that love should not be feared, emotions should not be feared, instead we should embrace kindness and get rid of evil. Good really can prevail. They give me the courage to continue with each coming day.

I am shown in advance, which people to pick on. So, when I have to be seen to inflict pain on strangers, I am already shown in my dreams, which people deserve it more than others. This way I don't feel quite as bad. I have also been shown some faces of people who are aware of a better life, but are not strong enough to join me on the journey. They know who I am, as they to have dreams. They give me faint acknowledgement when they see me and I fully understand their predicament.

Tomorrow will be the best day ever. Tomorrow is the day.