About the external self

Personally, I am a Buddhist. Although I take things seriously, I have not failed. But this does not mean that I will be angry because of the failure, the failure is a failure, I will not have a big swing in my mind, I will think about whether it can be remedied, whether the cost of remediation is worth it. In the eyes of others I am responsible, I am free and easy, very positive energy. My level of appearance is good, though not outstanding, but there are some attractive, but the clothes are just not good. From the naughty time to now, I think twice every step. In the eyes of my parents, I am quieter and more calm, but at the same time, I have lost so much vitality. In the eyes of my friends, I have a sense of ritual, and I am changing step by step. Do your best but hard to calm down, not good but also not can't change. In the eyes of others I have been trying to change, running, reading, practicing words, although sparse but also in doing, but the effect is not so ideal. I don't particularly want to change the place, because I have every place and work together, did not do running every day, but every physical test is still ideal, say I am nothing but I can't find anything wrong with each place. The Buddha is optimistic and has self-control, but it is difficult to achieve great things. Maybe he has influenced me. After all, it is impossible for me to ask others what my image is in his mind, and it is difficult to get a true answer if I ask.

As a matter of fact, I am not really a Buddhist. On the contrary, I am a little pessimistic, which can be understood from the tone above. My Buddha system is not because of free and easy and don't care, but can not get too many things, I also ambition is higher than the sky, to reach the bright moon on the green sky, Chang Jiuzhou, walk eight barren, such as silent alone on the west tower; I also had a dream such as a hero, sword refers to the world injustice, punish evil, guard China, but his eyes covered. Young is young, they see the spring breeze is not happy, see cicada not tired, see the autumn wind is not sad, see winter snow do not sigh, see rich and lazy perceived, see injustice do not dare to face, because they are young. With the growth of age, it is not easy to know parents, to help, from now on the hero without a dream, care about the material, rice, oil and salt, rolling dust, wrapped around our nostalgia for the world.

Poor children as early as home, thoughts are more complex, but in the nine years of compulsory education, I am mediocre but not bad, but also want to make their own contribution to the country for the society, to make efforts for world peace. Not like the invincible superman in the American blockbuster, save the world at one stroke; Nor do I want to be as invincible as the Bai Qi who has no defeat. Only want to be one of the stars, with a faint light to illuminate the world: only want to be a small stone, buried deep in the earth. Even if there is no hero dream, and no hero body, but must contribute to society. As a member of the country, what I can do is to trust the country and keep my mind clear about what I should do and what I should not do. Rumors are everywhere, so I need to have the ability to distinguish right from wrong, call on others to resist the rumors, and tell everyone to go out less. The majority of people in the world are ordinary people, we should stand in the perspective of common people to think about the problem, and then solve the problem, maintain the ideal of independence, realize the social self.