1 drop of Endorphonezia & 2 drops of Deemotionephix

Deemotion Defensive Soldiers

What is this thing going in my head? Why is my heart beating so fast? Why am I shaking? Where was I? Who was that Ro-Man? She exactly looked like me. Not so Ro-Man. How I got there and how I am back here? Ughhh.. Not again. Not today. This is the most important day of my life! Why am I not normal? Luckily, looks like my bracelet haven’t noticed anything. Maybe I should get up and see Mr.Khanigan. First thing is first. Got to break my night fast with 1 drop of endorphonezia… Bye bye weird thing in my head! And of course, last but not least… 2 drops of deemotionephix. Ha! I like how they take this “weirdo” feeling right away.

It should shoo the staffs at Ministry of Deemotion too. The only thing you should be scared of in Ro-Man World. Nobody knows where they exactly take those who failed Deemotion test, forever. Deemotion Defensive Soldiers would always go in group of 5 and no one ever saw any of them smiling. Some even say they don’t take Endorphonezia, which sounds crazy and almost lie to me. Endorphonezia is essential in our body! How would they go without it more than 3 days? Because I saw what happens if we miss it for 3 days through Jairen. My body was frozen when I saw her reaction that I almost sent automated warning to Head Intelligence Department (HID) again. Those are the ones who detects your emotions by signals from your body and send Deemotion Defensive Soldiers. Jairen was first speaking in high tone with Mr.Khanigan, but not like singing… and then started to melt down… From her eyes… With crystal like thing. It is hard to describe. Looked similar to teardrops. But the one came out of Jairen’s eyes that day was not like that. Teardrops have source, right? I mean, usually there is a reason. Onion like substances, for example, or lack of oxygen in lungs CAUSE teardrops. But hers was different, as if it was causing from her inside… or somewhere else we don’t know.

I just could tell. Because I had exact same thing happened a decade ago. But it was at night while I was sleeping. I didn’t understand why or how it happened. Only thing I would remember is damp pillow under my head and Mr.Khanigan standing next to 5 other Deemotion Defensive Soldiers while warning chip on my bracelet(everyone must carry this portable ID on their body, permanently) send signal to HID right infront of their eyes! I wouldn’t remember anything after that, until I woke up next day and Mr.Khanigan told me to keep on living like nothing happened. So Jairen kind of reminded me of myself that day. But she was awake and all crazy. It didn’t take long for Deemotion Defensive soldiers to show up after her chip detected abnormality from her. Mr.Khanigan couldn’t do anything when they took her. He just looked at me and tapped by his heart for 2 times (in our “Nomad” Rorphonage’s secret language we came up with during our summer trip to Grassland); him telling me to take 2 drops of my Deemotionephix 1 drop of Endorphonezia.

“Nomad” Rorphonage

I fancy my Rorphonage and my friends here, best thing about it is our principle Mr.Khanigan. He even made me TTM01 (thoughts turning machine) for my elementary programming graduation which I still have it everywhere. But the one I have now is not the original one he designed for me. TTM01 turns my happy emotional thoughts (mostly thoughts about Mr.Khanigan) into beautiful 7 color flowers instead of sending signals to government. I happened to grow 7 color flowers everywhere I go that year, and it was too noticeable for everyone. So he had to design another one with bubble instead of flowers. Mr.Khanigan then told me “It is safe to transform good and happy thoughts& emotions into our reality world instead of keeping in our brain, but you must be careful with your fear, anger and sadness. It is 1 in million for Ro-Man to experience any of this emotion. You are not abnormal but special. You just need to learn to control them by yourself. And this should be our little secret”.

I know and understood enough that I MUST NOT be invaded in my emotions, or else we would bring this planet to catastrophe like ancestors of Hu-Mans did. Compare to Ro-Mans, Hu-Mans take only 2% of the population and they are the remainders from early catastrophe of last era. There are so many myths around Hu-Mans and their ancestors; how they ended up crazy, sinking in their own greed, ego and all those harmful emotions and habits that are restricted in Ro-Man government!

Mr.Khanigan would also tell story about “nomads” who were the only tribe in early ages that tried to save mother earth. But it is hard to find information about them because they left almost no prints behind. All these stories had happened underneath us, on the “Grassland”! When livings were able to step, walk and run on the ground. When soil could grow beautiful 7 color flowers that I used to grow from my thoughts! All these would sound too far to be true to me. To everyone, to be honest. But no one would show too much excitement like me. They seem like they can tell no difference between real ground down there and this made-up magnetic ground that holds us! That part and these thoughts would always make me uncomfortable! Right from there, I would think about Mr.Khanigan and my flower gun to trick my brain again.

I would like to be like Mr.Khanigan when I become fully developed Ro-Man. Most half-developed Ro-Mans would dream to become Deemotion Defensive Soldiers when they are grown enough. And they’d start to invest all their earned energy and wealth towards metal transplant at their early development ages. Once their all organs (mostly inner) are completely transplanted into iron and metal, (including heart, but of course not brain) they receive their authority to enter HID. Back in a day, when Hu-Mans used to control world, flesh and body were nothing but useless plants. Live organs, bodies get tired and ripped very easily but iron don’t. Only thing is that iron is the most expensive metal due to high demand. All the organ transplants, robot parts, essential medicines are made of some type of metals.

If you are matching a Ro-Man baby to start a life, you need to be able to transplant its first metal organ which will cost you a lot. If you fail to do so, your matched baby will be sent straight to “Cyclone of Hu-Mans” to be petted. Once they reach reproductive age, they are mated to produce new stronger b rain. “Brand new Hu-Man baby” must be sent to Ro-Man Baby Registration and Matching Center to get adopted. And here you go again. Baby must have his first metal organ transplanted, and become no longer a Hu-Man to be registered as Ro-Man citizen. Even if they successfully have their baby registered, many Ro-Man families fail before the baby turns 13 and release their hair (official age Ro-Mans can interact on their own and issued an independent chip; metal MUST be fully grown or transplanted into body except brain and heart, made “heart” as an Optional transplant to register as Ro-Man due to 3013 Space Peace Convention with 18 planets). Guess it is just really hard to maintain growing Hu-Man body, mixed with Robot parts, both scientifically and naturally(But worked 98% of this society!). That is the point where they leave their babies with notes outside our Rorphonage. And Mr.Khanigan take care of them all! Mr.Khangin is like only Ro-Man in the world that can understand me. Maybe because I am the youngest one to got here and the one who has the least metal… There it goes again! My chip is trying to send alarm! What is wrong with me? For what? Couldn’t all these be happy thoughts so I can turn it into Bubbles! I need to take 2 more drops of my Deemotionephix & 1 drop of Endorphonezia …

Questions are not meant to be answered

Alright, I am almost out of my prescription which I must not until 13th of next month; and I have to tell what happened last night to Mr.Khanigan and ask him for advice. Last time I had visual in my brain right before I wake up, I was so panicked and almost told it to Deemotion Defensive Soldiers at their arrival for me. I don’t remember anything after that. But Mr.Khanigan told me to never tell anyone about my sleep visuals and let him know as soon as possible when I experience it again. So here I am. On my way to Mr.Khanigan’s room which locates 2 mile higher than mine. I always wonder why Mr.Khanigan have all these wealth but never spent it to change his heart. Because all Ro-Mans are obsessed with heart transplant. It is the most expensive and the hardest of all (since brain transplant is forbidden unless required in order to maintain All Nation Safety). And if you get one, you are the real Ro-Man. He had his every organ replaced with precious iron or other metal but his heart and brain. I wish I would ever get a chance to ask that. Some questions of mine, he would never say a word. Sometimes, he would act like he did not hear anything.

Almost there, only a mile to fly. These magnets boots are almost walking! Look at these Ro-Mans’ boots over there! Way nicer and newer than mine. Definitely flying faster. And higher. And straight. All five of them! Wait, hold on! Why are there 5? Aren’t they Defensive Soldiers? What are they doing here? Why are they going towards Mr.Khanigan’s room? Maybe they will pass… No, they are going towards him. There are no other rooms that high except his. What should I say when I get there? What do I do?

They took Mr.Khanigan.. All I could do was stay frozen behind a block on rest stop. That was the only blind spot I could see Mr.Khanigan clearly. I don’t know what to say or what to feel. They took my last and only hope right in front of my eyes. I don’t even know what hope means. But Mr.Khanigan was the only Ro-Man who was everything I did not understand, everything I could not find the answer for. Everything or only thing that I had. Ughh this feeling again! I could use my last 2 drops of Deemotionephix & 1 drop of Endorphonezia.

I can’t get out of his room. Not until he comes back. Not after what I read from his letter. Letter he left for me. All this confusion... And this heart shaped locket inside the envelope too. Did he leave this so I can transplant it in me? But then why should I escape to forbidden Grassland? And how? What truth should I find there? And why? I am supposed to become real Ro-Man tomorrow. But he told me I am not the one. What does that even mean? Too many questions, but none of them had answer. But, hey, this locket opens. Oh my god, I have never seen picture like this before. This lady on the picture, she is from my sleep visual! She is! And who is this baby?