Religious Relationship

Start writing...Risen to another day,without anything planned out.
It's past 5am and am up late today unlike my usual time of 2am.
I have not been praying much lately cos I have been fighting within my subconscious whom to direct my prayers to..
See I was born a Muslim but my extended family are Catholic Christians ; my dad was the only Muslim in our family.
So back to today. I have been living on this planet for 30 years now and I have always identify as a Christian and I love the religion and the act it gels with my lifestyle, the convenience to pray anytime. My point is being a Christian is way easy for me than being a Muslim.
Now the twist is this; I fell in love with a devout Muslim from the North(and they are predominantly Muslim). I really do love this girl but then I was told by her step brother that she is not allowed to marry a non-muslim,that I have to convert to Islam and that's a big issue for me to convert away from Christianity and also I felt I will be seen as an unserious Muslim if am to convert cos of a woman. So I decided I am not converting even if it means losing the love of my life.
So her step brother gave me an idea that I will have to pretend to be a Muslim after it won't be hard as I was born and raised a Muslim.  I can perform ablutions and can still recite some surah off hand.... So I agreed. Mind you I met her at her step father house and I have not non her biological father as her mother was no longer married to him. So we started to make arrangements to go see the father in the north whom  I am told is a very strict Muslim.
I had to be answering my birth Muslim name and also try not to use any Christian exclamation I am used to,like exclaiming Jesus Christ . My fiance was like I should only say oh Allah.. 😆.  It was not hard to switch tho but still makes some mistakes when am with her sibling, but their opinion does not matter.
So I did that and we were engaged then I have to go prepare to our wedding.  Then came a serious problem, her mother was only using my woman to ask me for money which I always inclined at first but her father told ne to learn to decline their requests as it will seem the daughter is getting married to me because of the financial assistance am rendering.  I do not know how he knew or who told him but I decided to follow his advice and guidance.
So I started declining my woman requests for money and that was where the trouble started with her mother.  She would call to complain which she does not do before. When I still did not bulge she will call my friend and complain too and he will tell me the same thing that mother inlaw keep asking for money like she is on drug but I doubt it.
Now it has gotten so bad that my woman is now threatening me with not going through with the weather anymore.  Obviously because I  stopped sending money to she and her mother. I know it's her mother there manipulating her but I don't want to say anything to her father.
Next weekend is the wedding date. Will let you guys know if it worked out.
Now since I have been pretending to be a Muslim I feel distance from my Christian faith and now am starting to think of not identifying with any religion cos I have observed alot of things in this small time of my life.