New Year for you, just another day for me.

Everyday I don't feel the same. Using everyday of my life to create a way to help make this world safe. I'm a single dad of three, I have a small family but I want to make this whole world my family. How can I spread love without hate coming my way, something I sit and think on everyday. The way we see each other needs to change because you'll put down someone who helps someone everyday. I don't give to receive, I give to create peace. I don't feel good seeing someone standing out side in 30 degree weather begging for money, I might not have much at the time but I still give some peace.

I try not to say "I'm going to start on New Years day because when I plan something it usually fails, instead I motivate my self to create peace everyday. To me having the world on my mind everyday is good progress to me, I know I cant come up with a solution to create a shift towards peace. When setting your goals that you want to complete, you need to now you can do it and its already done. Some people run like rabbits to get it done but pace yourself so you can make sure you are on the right path. I know I'm on the right path because I feel new everyday, that lets me know I'm becoming who I need to so I can help my world.

I want to find a solution to help everyone dealing with suicidal thoughts and depression. I've dealt with serious depression major of my life but I become aware of it when I was about 23. Growing up in my community I was unaware because no one talked about it, the people who raised me just gave me video games so I didn't think about it. I'm not blaming them because I'm pretty sure they were unaware of what I might be dealing with so what could they really do. I started being aware of my depression when i nearly killed myself, I put my arm through a glass window thing i was going to forever be by myself. The accident increase my tolerance for smoking weed and my anxiety started to go in a bad direction.

Fast forward to now, I'm able to tell what it is. I've been became aware of the world i live in, so much confusion you don't know what to believe. God gave me power to be aware of everything, he knows I want everyone to be mentally healthy so he gives ideas to me. Only problem I have is not many people believe me so they wont listen. I know that's just only inn the beginning so I have to keep believing in me. I want to create something for the mothers and father, the ones who take care children on their own. I can create a daycare, I enjoy my little three but we don't have much family so I need to create one for them. I'm a single dad with not much help and I know I'm not the only one dealing with these. Its sad seeing mothers kill themselves because no one wants to help them, having children is a blessing but having a village behind it can solve a lot of things.

My mom most likely dealt with a lot of depression but I couldn't get her to let me help her out. She passed November 16th before getting a chance to hold her grand children. She was depressed from losing a close friend, there was no way to help. She had me and was a single mom along with two other sibling, that is feeling is hard to deal with I know because now I'm dealing with the same thing. I know I'll find a solution soon, I need to for my children.