Life of a Stay-At-Home-Mom

Life as a stay-at-home mom is not for the faint of heart. There will be lots of tears (you and them), lots of screaming, fighting, and of course, hugs. I am a mom of three wonderful, hateful monsters. They fill me with love, anger, sadness, joy, and so much happiness. Honestly, it is the hardest job in the world.

My oldest, we'll call him "J", will be 6 in a few months. He is literally my first c-section baby. He came early at 37 weeks due to high blood pressure. He was also breech so he had to be cut from me. He starts school in a few weeks and it is hard to let go. J loves to draw and paint like me. He is also the one who refuses to listen to anything and loves to fight. Fortunately, he is the brightest thing in my world. He taught me what unconditional love felt like. Yeah, his daddy loves me, but it is nothing like the love a son has for his mother. He can be a big pain in the butt, but he knows I will always have his back. I am a nervous wreck knowing he is going to be at school. I have always been worried. He has a peanut allergy, eczema, and Dwayne's Syndrome in his left eye. I am so scared he will be picked on. I was in school and it made me hate it.

My middle child, we'll call her "E", just turned 4 a few months ago. She is literally a spitting image of me. Hair, attitude, and sass. I always wanted a mini-me who has big blue eyes and dang it, I got it! She loves her brothers and us. She is so funny and has the best smile. She is also a pain in the butt because she follows in her big brother's footsteps. Whenever he does something, she follows right behind him and does the exact thing! It is exhausting! I swear it is. They love to fight with each other over the silliest stuff. She does defend her turf since it is two against one. But once her new sister is here, she will have some help against the boys.

My youngest "D" is two and the biggest sweetheart ever. Oh, his smile and giggles give me life! I swear I could live off of it. But dear Lord, his screams are painstaking!! My ears want to bleed! He will scream over everything little thing. If you have a blanket, this child will steal it from you. But if you put up a fight, be prepared for the most piercing screams ever! D can be the sweetest thing but once you tick him off, COVER YOUR EARS! I am not kidding. His screams could peel the paint off the walls. He is the screamer in this family.

I don't know what this next baby will look like or who she'll become, but I cannot wait. I know I will be proud to be her mother despite the attitude she will have because of me. I hope she has dimples just like me and her siblings. I pray she has big, brown eyes and brown hair. I love my kids no matter how much they put me through. Some days I want to quit, but honestly, I can't. No one, I mean no one, will love them as I do. They were cut from me and only me. No one can take that away from me. I truly love being a stay-at-home mom, even if it kills me.