Isabel

Before I move forward about this new song I want to give a brief regarding my relationship with my mom.

(The music video for my new song is at the end of this story)

My Mom

I have an unusual relationship with my mom. We have always been very close. When I was twelve years old I would put my nose up against my mom's nose and talk with her face to face. Whenever we'd go to a store I would escort her arm in arm into the store as if I were escorting Miss America across the red carpet.

I love my mom with all my heart and soul. Now that she is 87 years old, blind, and in the throes of dementia my love for her has only heightened. She is a wonderful giving person. She always thinks about the comfort of those around her. She will give up her meal just to make sure the other person is fed.

My mom became ill in 2020 with Dementia and Depression. She had already been blind since 2010. I have been her 24/7 caregiver since then. The road has not been easy. I am sleep deprieved, confused, saddened, physically and emotionally drained, and my mental health has taken a major hit. Despite all this I have committed myself to taking this to the end. My mom deserves the best and I will give her my best.

Artificial Intelligence (AI)

A good amount of people take issue with AI. I get it. I understand the reasoning behind it. I especially understand with AI programs that write stories, poems, etc. Because when it comes to writing you either wrote the story or you didn't. Okay, some people use AI as a proofreader, as do I. Others use it to improve their stories. But many use AI to write complete stories, this something I cannot support.

AI for Music creation is an entirely different ballpark, well maybe not entirely. Because there are some people that use Music AI with a prompt such as: "Create a birthday song for my 40th Anniversary and then clicck create and the app creates an entire song; lyrics, music, and all.

For me AI is not a creator but it is a tool which helps me realize my creative endeavors. The way I use music AI is an art in itself. I have a strong background in music and technology so I know a few tricks. I sneak made up words into the lyrics which have the ability to create sound effects which sound like any variety of instruments such as percussion, a screaming saxophone, a synth keyboard, and so forth. I can also manipulate the prompts to a level that most do not realize you can do. I do much more than enter prompts such as "Rock" or "Classical." I am inputting more detailed info such as Beats Per Minute (BPM), scales, pitches, keys, and I also delve into unusual effects. My prompts are akin to sound engineering as opposed to inputting a few words in the prompts field.

The Song

My mom is a very special lady. She was born into extreme poverty. She was the only one of five sisters to work her way out of poverty into success. She shared a small bedroom with her four sisters and slept in a bed with two of her sisters (three in one bed). By the time she was 38 years old she was the co-owner of a beautiful home in an upper scale neighborhood in the suburbs of Orange County, California. She owned cars such as Corvettes, Cadillacs, Mercedes Benzs, and others. She came a long way from being that poor girl in Bakersfield, California to a successful businesswoman in the OC.

But here's the catch about my mom. She never forgot her roots. My mom was this successful lady who could have turned her back on poverty, but she didn't. Every week she would visit a local homeless shelter and would drop off clothes and food. She would sit with the occupants and chit chat with the. They loved her, my mom had a witty sense of humor. She donated to the Ronald McDonald House program regularly. She would buy shopping carts full of food for people standing on the streets with signs. She volunteered at a local pancake breakfast in the park and volunteered at the Senior Center. In the early 1980s my mom was well known in our community and was asked by the Mayor Pro Tem to run for a Councilmember position. My mom declined the invitation because she wanted to be there for her three children. Her children have always been the most important part of her life. My mom continued to do volunteer work up until she completely lost her eye sight. This unfortunately threw her into a deep depression, which she successfully hid from our family, with the exception of myself. I recognized the traits of depression and I attempted to open up with her about it but she was in denial.

I love my mom very much. She is a good person. This song is one of many ways that I honor her.

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With Love, RHC ❤️