Holiday Time

With 2020 ending within a week and a half, I can't say that everyone has had good things happen lately. The pandemic was very unexpected and with lots of people not having work or anything to help families with food, rent, and things that people need for babies or really anything. I'm just saying having a baby during the pandemic was not easy for me either. I had to go into the hospital for my c-section, it was also a toss up because my significant other was about to be called out for riot patrol in Dallas. Luckily, he didn't have to go, which made me feel better because he wanted to be there when his son was born. Well we all can't say that everything that has happen has been good. Lot's of people have had very tough times and I congratulate you on how well you did this year even though it has been rough. I know families have been struggling and hoping to get things for your family. Don't worry I had the same issue back in March right before my son was born. Now I can't say that things are getting better but they are somewhat looking up. Knowing that Christmas is next week, my family and I have been packing up to get ready for our move to a bigger place and somewhere we like that's better than our apartments now. It's also been a little rocky with his family well I should say his dad, because that's all who is dealing with this.

Usually during the holidays with my family, we would get together around four p.m to have dinner, chit chat and later on during the evening we sit by the fire and the youngest opens presents first. My family was always laughing and looking more towards the new year, not dreading on the past or what has happen recently. My SO (SO means significant other) is very happy lately except the part where he has been sick. Luckily he doesn't have COVID, or that would have been bad for my son and I. They say time heals all wounds, but something tells me that his father is going to punish his grandson because oh he doesn't like the mother. That's not his choice, he should really be careful because it also goes back to the time where white men don't like hispanic women due to them being outspoken and very generous to others.

Anyway going back to being grateful, I'm grateful for certain things in my life. First for my father and I talking daily, and having a close relationship with him and him always making my son smile. Second, I'm grateful for my grandmother (only grandparent left) for looking after my oldest daughter. Even though she is not with me and my SO she is always in my heart and I know she is happy and smiling, laughing, even getting into trouble sometimes. She is my other little one or what I call her is my little angel. My dad also does talk to her and help out as much as he can. Now another thing is my SO, he's been there since day one. Meaning is that he has cared for me in his own way, even though he doesn't show it very much, he does care. His father and his girlfriend believe that he so unhappy but there are times where we as a couple fight, argue, get on each other's nerve and that's what happens. People can't just say that they have a perfect relationship but not arguing when that's not the case. They always seem to find an reason to blame me for everything. As for him, my SO, he has this wonderful personality that I adore because we can pick on each other and both know that we are playing around.

It will be out first Christmas with our son who was born in June of 2020, which kind of makes it special for us. To me it's not about the presents or the food, it's about those around us that make is special and want to make is special no matter what. It also means that the past is not very important to us. Move on, spend time with those you love and look forward to the important memories that those want to have with you. As for my family and I, we will be looking at Christmas lights, making hot chocolate and watching a bunch of Disney movies together. That's what 2020 has done, it should really appreciate those who care for others and the big things don't matter. Family isn't about spending money on them and who has bought a lot or who hasn't, it's about the important people who are still alive and take care of themselves during this pandemic.