An F'D up love story

My story begins when i met my (now) fiance. We met through his cousin/my best friend. Neither of us had intentions on dating. Especially because he had a child already on the way. We ended up meeting each other and sparks FLEW. It was confusing but so so exciting. I fell in love and so did he.

What to do now? We have all these feelings but its complicated on many levels. He has a child on the way and he lives 2 hours east. We continue to talk for quite sometime and spend time together but eventually he goes back to his home town and things just slowly fall apart. His beautiful new baby had arrived and everything felt different. He wanted to try to work on things with the mother and i respected that 100% and backed away.

At this point i am so sad and jealous. Love feels hopeless. I wish i was the one he was having a family with. It was a selfish thought and i knew that. One day i receive a text. It reads, "Hey i am coming to town i would love to talk to you". I have butterflies and i feel so excited but then reality sets in.. he has a whole family back home. I shouldn't see him and do that to her or to my self. But i do.

Here i am meeting up with the guy that took my heart and stomped all over it. Unintentional or not it hurts either way. We hangout and things feel so right. He then tells me things are not working with the mother and he expected that but felt he needed to try for his child. I am so confused but happy? It feels wrong to feel happiness knowing his child will start their life with split parents but i cant help it. We discuss our relationship and him moving into the house i just bought.

He is all moved in now. Things are perfect. He takes me to meet his child and she is a mere 2 months old. I can do this, i can be a step mom. I come to terms with the future. I am happy and so glad to be doing this with him. We visit his child on the weekends and everything seems wonderful. Then, we wanted to bring his child to meet their extended family where we live. The mother has a complete fit and when this happened we decide its best we move to where he is from.

I am here. I moved 2 hours away from the only town i had ever known with this man i am madly in love with. I feel completely crazy but it feels so right. Now his child adores me and i do her. I am truly over the moon to be here and doing this. Until, i begin to vomit every morning..

Am i pregnant!? I was freaking out. I have never consistently vomited like this before. It was time to test. My mind was racing. His child is only 4 months old now. How am i supposed to do this. I should have been smarter or more careful or all of the above. I pee on the stick and before i get the chance to set it on the counter i can already see.. 2 VERY dark red lines. Now my heart is pounding i am sweating. I know in this very moment my life is going to continue changing drastically. I tell my boyfriend i am pregnant and he LAUGHS. He assures me its going to be fine and i am doing great as a step parent and things will only go up from here. I feel so relieved.

Our love continued to grow. We welcomed a baby girl in summer of 2020. We were so happy. We bought a new home in 2021. We became engaged and we are still so in love and growing even closer everday. This is not your average love story and we both sacrificed a lot to make it work. This relationship took lots of work, a dash of tears and a big ole glass of love.