System and Economy Failing

Have you heard yet? Not "The Struggle is Real" slogan but the new gregorian chants "The System is Failing" or "We (the citizens) are facing Economic Uncertainty" or "Panic is in the Air". I have. I see it on the news, I watch it on TikTok or Youtube or other channels. I hear it in the wind, the storms, and the voices that speak to the schizos. It's causing me so much anxiety I have no fingernails left to bite. I know I'm not the only one who is scared, but I think I get more upset than most people because I am so exhausted from having to move and migrate. I moved so many times in my childhood you may as well have called me a military brat. Then in my young adult life, it was as if my childhood was haunting me as history repeated time after time. I counted the addresses. Of over 20 residences where I stayed and called "home" for some period, I could only recall about 5 of the actual addresses. That's because those were the only 5 where I lived longer than 2 years. People asked me rudely and often "Why can't you stay with a job for longer than a year?" I would try to explain the disabilities that come with bipolar symptoms and schizophrenia. But it's more than that. I couldn't hold on to a job for a long time because none of the jobs that I had could afford the rent or the mortgage as they were defined. So what was the point? And I'm not alone in this sad epiphany. I didn't want to believe or tell others what they are discovering for themselves now: The System and The Economy are set up for you to Fail. That's shocking enough, but what's even worse? It's boomeranging back in a karmic cosmic explosion, and now the System is failing itself as the Economy is the worse I've seen it in 50 years.

Gone are the days of fifty-cent cheeseburgers. Now you need at least $20 to go to McDonalds and that's if you're an app member. Gone are the days of $5 sneakers at the five and dime. Again, if you don't have $20 or $30, you're not getting any new shoes. Gone are the days of "Bestie Roommates" who can get ahead by splitting the rent. The rents are so high in some places that even if both roommates work full-time they will still come home to their apartment and wonder why they should spend their lives to end up with $5 at the end of the week if they were careful. It's sad, so sad, so tragic, and I'm crying all the time about it. Literally.

I tried to warn the younger generation. They laughed at me, mocked me. They said that I was just a spoiled privileged white girl who didn't know anything about the real world. I admit that I was spoiled. I admit that I am white. But I see now, that my naivete and my inexperience were tiny compared to my wisdom and the advice that I shared was mostly based on true grit experience.

We were too busy envying this generation or that generation. While the boomers were bragging about Motor City and chrome cars and raising five kids, the Xrs were bragging about the best music and bringing technology to the people, and the Zrs were laughing at both of them saying they were faster, smarter, and didn't need us anymore. We were all right, but none of us were alright. Now it doesn't matter what Generation you're a part of, we are all screwed.

The homeowners who have jobs can't afford car insurance, car repairs, and property taxes. Just because you got minimum wage up to $12 per hour somewhere, doesn't mean they got an increase in their paychecks. Yet the babies without child support keep getting born and who can afford daycare? How many babysitters are needed to watch one baby? Does she earn $12 per hour? No one can afford that. So the 2-income family is out the door. That's good, right? The mother should stay home with the baby. Maybe. But if she's suffering from post-partum depression, her baby might end up a late abortion in a dumpster or drowned in the bathtub. Did you forget about those cases? I don't mean to be gross or nasty, but these events have occurred and could occur at any time, especially during panic, war, and systematic or economic collapse.

Some of the hippies and Krishnas have been hoping the economy would collapse. They are like the angry Jesus in the Temple. They hate money. They think people are better than money. They are optimists. I'm not an optimist anymore. I was, a long time ago. I've seen too many people turn a cold blind eye and abandon compassion. I've been disparaged for sharing and for being generous and compassionate by those who were already burned and turned cynic. I kept trying to be as positive as I could be under the weight of contradictions, chaos, violence, and crime. I kept saying "Money is just a tool for peace and order..." I kept saying "Look in the mirror at your own soul." I felt too many times like I was casting pearls at deaf or ungrateful swine. Trampling over my good or bleeding heart worse than a drunk driver laughing at your dead dog on the busy street.

Did you know that I was stopped by fake cops at the door of a Social Security office? They were in uniform and they had real guns. No lie. If I didn't comply with their "order" to leave the premises, I would have gone to jail or been shot. I am a Social Security benefit recipient. Does it make any sense to you that a recipient is not allowed to go to the office to ask a question or update personal information? Please, please, I need an answer. Does that make any sense to you? Don't skip this question. I am losing whatever sanity I have left. None of the people I talk to daily can explain or answer this question. I'm literally begging you, reader, for some kind of answer.

If you can't answer that question, and I can't answer that question, how are we supposed to remain optimistic?

How would you feel if you went to your car and as you were trying to put the key in the door, someone in uniform with a gun stopped you and told you "Don't touch that car." ?

You explain peacefully that is your car. You show them the key. They don't care. Are you going to get shot or go to jail to prove that is your car? Is it worth getting shot for? Is it worth getting lost or beat up in jail about? That's where our system is today. I'm not lying. I'm telling you this from experience.

People who have gone through the most horrendous events have been trying to warn us for hundreds of years. I listened carefully, but it was too shocking to believe immediately. I couldn't believe that humans could be so evil and so cruel to each other. It is a fact, and just because you haven't been tortured or shocked yet, doesn't mean they aren't conspiring to get you also. It's just a matter of time and turn. Think. Pray. Find your God. Because if you think that evil and some secular education are going to be enough to save you when it's your turn to face the firing squad, I doubt it. Karma isn't just some hokey notion talked about by red dot Indians. Karma is a game that is rigged by people you don't know and they care less about you than you care about the homeless and jobless people out there.

If you want to laugh at this and call me a paranoid conspiracy maker, that's fine. But that was the same reaction that Mel Gibson got when he tried to blow the whistle on Sex Trafficking. Then some naive family was crying when their child became another Amber Alert statistic.