You Robbed a Part of me

Hi my name is Taniyah Starks I am a victim of rape, sexual assault, and verbal and mentally abuse relationship. For a while I blamed myself, then I blamed the criminals, then I blamed everybody around me, then I ended up blaming myself again. A lot of unspeakable things happened to me and still do all because I am a beautiful women with the perfect body. Some men have no respect for women what so ever and it said that I have to watch my back or can’t be alone because I’m afraid I’ll get hurt again.

The very first accidental I was around 12 years old. When I was young peer pressure was a pain in the butt. I was always pressured to do things I didn’t want to do even high school the worse. Anyways it was this boy he was a little special like he was with the kids that had to be in the special classes. Anyways he liked me a lot like a lot a lot but I didn’t feel the same way. So one day his friend a boy from the same school we went to together he was trying to get me and the special guy ( we are going to call him John for the rest of this little story) together. I didn’t want to kept saying no I don’t want to be with John I don’t like him like that. The friend kept pressuring me to do it he just wouldn’t leave me alone about it so I said yes and the friend said I can just date John for a certain amount time and then just break up with him. So me and John ended up dating everything was smooth until one night. Me and my friend was at the park we seen John, his two friends ( one of the friends was the same friend who pressured me to be with John), and oldest brother. At first me and my friend was going to leave the park but we changed our mind we stayed but that was a big mistake. To keep this as pg-13 as possible I won’t give too much detail but just know every last one of them sexual harassed me. My sister came to the park which is where all this happened and no the friend did not help but my sister came to tell me that it was time to go back in the house. I cried all the way home I didn’t tell until the next day at first I was afraid to tell but my friends gave me confidence. I told I got talked about and nothing legally was done.

The story about my rapest. Yes there’s more this short story is about how my mom new boyfriend raped me. I’m not going to bash my mother in my story so I’m going to try to keep it strictly on what happened that night. Yes it was at night my baby sister, I believe she was 5 at the time, was sleep in the room in the same bed as me. He came in my room 3 times. The first time it was to ask for my mothers laptop which he already had, the second time he put my sister jurnee on the other bed in the room talking about she was falling off the bed. No she wasn’t she I felt her close to my leg. The third time he raped me. Yes cops was were called and few weeks later I dropped the case because they kept having me relive that moment and I couldn’t take it.

My last story the toxic mentally and verbally abusive relationship I was in. This story will be short and to the point. He would call me out my names, make feel like shit half of the time and the other half he would try to be sweet. I grew tired of the toxicity and his games once I got the strength to leave him he did some unspeakable things. He expose me to the world, threatened to kill me, he was stoking me I had to get police involved but this time justice was not survived. But karma is a bitch he realized how good he had it when I was around he was pain that he lost me forever.

I want to get my story out to the world because I want the women who are me scared to speak up and scared to continue to fight for justice. Be better than me don’t give up speak for the women who is forced or afraid to speak up. Be the backbone, the confidence, help bring justice to women for we is always getting treated poorly we need to fight together not each other.