Jail Journal: Page 21

Angel just left. It makes me sad when the chill people leave, but I guess that's why they're chill. Apparently Deebeelynn is also getting out earlier too. Just by a day due to the weekend but, hey that's pretty good.

Finally getting a bit of sleep has improved my mood tremendously. Also avoiding the sugars is doing the trick to. I kind of want to try to auto write in here but I feel like doing it is risky.

Amy took the joy out of singing. She always has ot make things a cpometition and tried to out sing me. Bruh, I am just bored, I am not trying to win American Idol. I am in a pretty good mood/health right now, but I just am waiting for lunch. I am going t ask Brooke about the waiver at 1pm.

Just an hour before lunch, maybe I should try reading the book I got. I cried when the person died in the beginning. I already knew it was a murder mystery book Donna Leon is a pretty good writer, in my opinion.

11:50am, an hou and a half until phones turn on. Maybe I'll take a nap to pass that bit of time. Unfortunately , the book made me more keen on the written word and I want to keep journaling. If not that, maybe read a few more chapters; I should try to finish the book even though I am barely into chapter 4.

I told Molly about my niece's bio dad and apparently she knew him. She even asked if he was missing a leg which he is. When I told her he abused her as a child she grew irate.

" Don't worry, I'll take care of him. "

Did I accidentally hire a hobo hitman to take out my niece's abuser?

Deebeelynn actually has had a really interesting life. She's been on the Oprah Show and play an extra in the movie Quarterback Princess

There were also pretty messed up things too but, I don't want to write all about that. The only funky thing I could think of with Deebeelynn is her family pushing the gay agenda for her daughter. It really doesn't have any affect on me either way since I am not gay. I just got to take it day by day. Being in jail is just a fever dream as far as I am concerned.

I am pretty grateful for my troubles and blessings. THis life of course can be better, but it is by no means bad. I feel s tired though now hearing everyone's stories, but I've just learned to let it pass through me and allow the world to do its thing.

I think most importantly, I need to focus on what I want. What I need going forward, and what's available to me. I do feel a bit bad... I think I said too much to Molly but I've grown too apathetic at the moment. Its really the only way to cope with being in this place.

The disturbance in the force is real here. I got the overwhelming feeling of dread a bit before the apathy. I also don't think being hungry is a good idea in here, since it just leads you to talking too much.

I am thinking of when we went to Thai the Knot... I wonder if I read the room correctly. Either way, I want to put it behind me. Perhaps I shouldn't mention it further. I am considering slashing that from my writing when uploading.

"You're going to be distracted by the symbol."

That's what Austin said in that one video...