Jail Journal: Page 20

I want to write more but I am pretty burnt out. I guess thanksgiving we're given a special meal and possibly even soda. I am looking forward to the soda. Since it is the 26th, it means there is only 4 more days of the month. Deebeelynn is set to leave that time and I'll miss her but, we all deserve to leave this place. Also, it will just be 5 days after that when it is my turn so, it is bringing me relief just thinking about it.

People keep saying commissary will come Wednesday, not Friday due to the holiday. I hope that is true, I ordered 2 ramen and the big bag of chips. I figured I should stay away from too much sugar in here since I have really bad gas and its pretty embarrassing out gassing the 7 month pregnant woman in here.

On that note, my period hasn't come. I am worried that I too might be afflicted... Hopefully it is just the stress from being in here making me late, or poor nutrition. The horrible thing is, I wouldn't know if it would be Jahon's or Drew's. Drew would be more cooperative for sure, but I'd rather it be Jahon's if I could choose, just for the superior genetics. That sounds so slutty but, after being in here I don't feel like judging myself too harshly. The world is a very shitty place for a woman at times and most of the women in here have like 4+ kids from equal amount of men so, I feel like it isn't uncommon.

I feel I might've gained weight since I am not cold like these first few weeks being in here. I am eating more of the food than I did because, you get bored and even bland food looks appetizing.

I had a glimpse of an idea then lost it. This place completely wrecks your mind to the point that even a passing thought is a struggle.

I have to check my housing voucher and see if I can get ported out to Hillsboro or if I should continue looking in Newberg for other options. The best bet would be to continue looking but being in jail sort of has that one month down the shooter in terms of my voucher. I also can't renew it a second time, I believe. Maybe a Christmas miracle will happen and I'll get somewhere opening up by the time I get out. I have to be open to god looking out for me.

Indigent came today so I got more paper, 2 envelopes, toothpaste, tooth brush, and some bath supplies. Indigent is when you don't have money in your account, so that allows you to get sort of some basic supplies. There are many words I am learning in here like that. Commissary, indigent, things like that. I've also memorized my id number so, I no longer am depending on my card for that information.

I have 3 envelopes now so I am wondering who o write at this time... I asked Sheryl (aka 'grandma') when the phones would be turned on today but I guess I should just wait until Amy starts her shit.

I am trying to think of all the things that are on the backburner right now; housing, court, relationsjips, work, hobbies. Also the SSI thing. I am hoping it will just be a reduction and not a withdrawal from the program.

I forgot since it is Tuesday, phones are not available until 1pm due to transports. I guess I can call later today but I feel like it would be harder to patch through as it is less time in the day to possibly call. I think it would be easier to wait for my attorney to visit me again in person and just have a paper of questions with me.