Jail Journal: Page 17

I got new clothes today but the shirt doesn't have a pocket like everyone else's. It looks like it was ripped off because the stitch holes are still there. I am going to have to carry my id around now.

I keep waking up and hahving mild restless leg syndrome while being warm. It's giving me anxiety. I really think i need to stop taking the Abilify.

I dreamt that I was finally living in a city or something like that, but my mom admitted to not being so keen on me making my own money. After I told her what a shit philosophy that was, I woke up.

This Sunday is going to be a bit slow I feel but knowing Monday and Tuesday will go by quicker makes me feel better about it.

Kind of happy that my dreams are coming back to me but they are all revolving around talk to my mom. We got into a discussion about mountain view and apparently the school I went to there wasn't a good school. We magically teleported there at night and I was explaining what living there was like. We were hiking through the back roads when a motorcycle passed by while I was describing school life. I sort of laughed and clapped like a retard, but I guess I was just filled with childhood glee. The school completely changed to a facility. My mom asked herself out loud if there was anywhere to stay nearby. I said here was probably a hotel up the hill somewhere.

I decided to check out some comic books. The House of M is pretty interesting. I kind of like he character of the Scarlet Witch. She has mental breakdowns that affect the nature of reality like me.

I dreamt of my brother asking me why I did something...

"Fear.. and/or Anger. "

I took a shower to pass the time after waking up a though if I move to Hillsboro, that might put me in range for being able to doordash stuff from Uwajimaya! Ah, the fees might be pretty steep still because f the distance, though. I can't wait until I see what's available either way.

Me without the Abilify is so much better. I mean, going through the adjustment period in here is torture. I don't think its worth it. I am more able to enter the Ether, no jittery legs, more natural fluctuation of energy.

I decided to move my bunk since feng shui is a thing. It's better lighting to write and draw at least. I wrote my grandma a letter. I feel I should've done that sooner but, it didn't really occur to me until now.

I learned to play the card game Garbage. I think it is mostly a jail game, but its relatively easy way to pass the time. Mood-wise I am all squared. I think I'll sleep fine tonight. I didn't buy anything from commissary because Deebeelynn said I could have her suff when she leaves. Plus, I might need to save my money or phone or something else later on. I just prepared for tomorrow to meet with Jan.

The downside of the bunk I moved to might be the heater vent, actually. I sleep better when it is a little cold, but the vent seems to be above me.

Molly Brown, she is a bald homeless woman missing most of her teeth. She is a pretty kooky one in here. She told me I should have a kid, which I kind of appreciated because she was saying I was a nice enough person to be a mom.