You

You

18 years, that’s all it took for me to finally find you

You were the man I had always wanted and longed for,

To have and to hold

But most of all, to love and to cherish for the rest of my life.

Everyone dreams of a love that consumes them and makes them feel the most alive,

I believed it was a one in a million shot that something so pure could exist.

I never imagined that the person I had been friends with since the 9th grade would end up being the love of my life

How could’ve I been so blind to not see you were in front of me the whole time?

We were kids when we fell in love

And let me tell you, when I fell in love with you,

I had no doubt that I wanted our days to turn into years and our nights to soon be an eternity

One after another, our little infinity grew and grew,

The stars shined brighter

Your smile lit up my world

And for a singular moment,

Just one moment everything began to make sense in my life

Because you brought that kind of meaning into my life.

I had a reason to continue fighting and I would’ve fought for you hundreds if not thousands of battles to get to you.

The world is filled with so much hate,

Although I learned there was so much more than that

I got lost in your eyes

Your touch became more gentle than the softest rain ever to have graced the earth,

Your kiss lit up more than a thousand fireworks

And there you were, the most beautiful thing that could ever happened to me.

We hurt the ones we love

And I hurt you more

And it pained me to have seen you suffer when I know you needed me the most,

We decided to say goodbye this time

And bury our love in the place we had once laid and promised a forever home within our hearts.

I made mistakes that I’m forever regretful for

Because it ended up hurting the one person I loved the most.

I told you I wouldn’t stop fighting for you until my heart decided to rest in time

However, until that day, until a day I am no longer on this earth with any sign of life,

I will do whatever it is in my power to show you that my love for you has and always will be the most honest and precious thing I could’ve ever felt in my life.

And I never want to let that go

Because I always knew how much you loved me and we loved each other

And no matter who comes into my life after you, I can’t ever love them the way I always loved you.

That girl that fell in love with the cute geeky boy she shared a few classes with over the years is still there she just felt trapped in her own pain

But now, she understands that to love someone, to truly love someone is one of the most if not the absolute best feeling in world you could ever have.

Therefore, this is my oath to you, I want you to be happy because that’s what makes me the most joyful

Doesn’t mean I’ll stop fighting for you

Or not change into the person I know I can be,

This is simply my eulogy for us because I realized that if I loved you just as enough as I always have, then I would love you enough to let you go

In spite of the pain and heartache but time tells all

And the saying goes if they truly love you, they’ll come back.

I told you I saw the future because I know what could happen

But I’m letting you go for now even if it means I have to wait for a little while just to have you again,

I would be honored to do so because you’ve always worth fighting for.

You became more than what I ever wanted, you were everything I never knew I needed.

My love for you will always ring true

Because we were just kids when we fell in love

But when I knew I loved you I knew I could never love anyone the same.

That is my oath to you. I deeply, truly, madly, passionately love you so very much my sweet love, my Pooh Bear.

Forever and always yours,

Your Starlight