Word of the day:お守り

I am just typing until I feel the tension leave my body but I think that I am just going to keep typing until I feel better. I am sort of channeling right now, but I enjoy the lesson actually. I sort of want to get an extra page out but I feel that's being a little cheeky. I mean I am basically like the other people who draw during class so, I am completely fine with it being that way.

I do need to learn more about intransitive verbs and transitive verbs. Just to remember the Ga and the wo placement of them.

Ga seems to go with the gerund version of verbs and the transitive and the transitive verbs have wo, usually paired with the past tense of things because intransitive verbs express as continual state of being.

Atsumaru is ga and to be collected is wo Atsumeru

Okosu is to be waken up probably on the same level as startled or to be awakened.

Okiteiru is the state of being awake and also expresses a continual state.

This is some messy ass note taking but once I get home I will compile the notes as I need to do for my math class since I am needing to prepare for the test tomorrow. I am kind of freaking out over that one.

Te aru has a connection with transitive verbs.

tsukuttearimasu would probably be from the standpoint of having prepared something for a specific time.

I feel like I need to finish this page in order to submit it but it is almost time to leave, I need to figure out what to write about for about 300 hundred words.

I don't think I have anything to write about for class, I did write a few notes for it here in a channeling method but I feel like, I guess I'll just leave it here.

I finally got home. I had to take a break but I finally broke down and cried when I realized my labradorite is gone. It wasn't the one Yuuichirou gave me but, it was my touchstone to my spiritual side. And I need some help right now. I don't know where my guides are, I don't know who to connect to, I feel completely alone. And I don't fucking know why but I am all worried my dad might be feeling the same way right now. I hope he is doing ok. I am sure this time of year is probably very hard for him.

I talked to Sebastian, he was able to calm me down for a bit. I fell asleep for about 6 hours. I guess I need to make that work for me today as I still need to study math. I am going to see if I can make coffee. I don't even know if my creamer is still good but I can door dash groceries this morning if I need to. Hell, maybe I'll drink it black, shows my desperation to wake up right now. I am actually awake but I am just sure I am going to be tired after today. I am really glad Thursday is a holiday. I kind of don't want to go to be honest. Not to school, but to thanksgiving.

Ah, someone said the 20th was astrologically significant. I probably should just check my purse planner. I write all the astrological events on that one.

I feel hesitant to do so even though I was just over at that desk. The coffee tastes a little wierd but I think I'll finish drinking it.