Word of the day: 脳みそ

I want to write about a few things but I am also not really wanting to say all the things that has been going on right now. Getting older means keeping some secrets in order to get by and I am fall into a pit of them as we speak.

I am saving up my money for the apartment, I have almost enough to get out but I need one more month to make it complete. The stress of having to be super frugal is getting to me, but I am just thinking that if I do go through the medical coding and succeed, then I can get a good amount of money by being a hermit entering paperwork which would be an optimal thing.

I just got done watching Fern Gully again. I was crying about the grandma fairy sort of evaporating away. I sort of find my life really boring.

I almost feel not like saying this but it is the truth and if I can't say the truth here, then I will probably explode in my normal life.

I am getting more subscribers on my medium account but I need to figure out how to I'll handle Medium. I feel like I need to make actual articles there while writing here on vocal feels more like just a diary.

Apparently I am going to study for medical coding and get an everyday job. I wonder if I should apply to places now but I am facing some technological problems with my computer and find myself having to navigate lessened connectivity; my computer can't handle much in terms of streaming.

I have been reduced to viewer on Twitch, Which I find sort of funny because I was doing so well before. But I guess that's the thing, fame or popularity is fleeting. I am fond of writing as a way to get my head straightened out. I sometimes feel I am losing track of reality when I am high and since I don't have an outlet other than that, it is my work for now until I can work again.

LOL that is pretty funny to put it that way, basically living to work... I guess if that's the case, the job should not matter since we have to do something to help society propel something. Keep the wheel turning, I guess.

I recently got some swelling on my eye and I am wondering if it is an allergy to something. I have been sneezing and sneezing, it probably is affecting my eyes now.

I guess this is hayfever? I don't think I ever had a full hayfever. When I was little, it went straight to my ears. Since I wear headphones all the time, it hasn't been like that.

I have plenty of money to do something fun with it but I am trying to be a good girl.

My new Todo list is very useful but I am trying to keep tasks from bleeding over unto the next day.

I was trying to keep the new Todo list for strictly cleaning and chores around the house and things I have to do like making phone calls and stuff like that but it has slowly turned into notebook, and online tasks.

I mean not strictly but the fact that I don't have a simple list like this for daily digital things, I sort of am utilizing the leftover spaces for that.

Filling out the sheet makes me feel like I have accomplished something in the day. I do have X rather than Checks for things my mom ends up doing or when I decide to push it to the next day but, at least I can say I am not overdoing it if I leave it to 1 page a day.

Perhaps it can be used for multiple things