Word of the day: 調整

This situation sounds like a headache. Blocking Jahon seems like a smart move, despite your reservations. As for Reo, being honest is key, but I get your concerns about potential consequences. Maybe start small and share how you feel about the long-distance. And those meds causing issues suck. Have you talked to your prescriber about alternatives?

Regarding Robert, that sounds like an awkward encounter. How did things change between you two after that? It's important to communicate your boundaries in friendships too.

Well Joel, besides being sure that my comment section is full of bots, being honest with Reo is considering telling him everything honestly. I am not sure if that will help or hurt our relationship.

We have only been talking for a few weeks now and he lives in another country. Even if I think this would end up in a sincere relationship, which I am not confident in, it will be quite some time before we're able to meet.

I would LOOOOVE to just spend the money I got saved up right now but I feel like the apartment is a bigger priority for me and... No, I want to travel somewhere with someone. I want to feel free.

I am plagued with the uncertainty of my convictions and going through my budget planner, I don't have any confidence. I have overworked for my mom I know that, as I am 46 hours in and only was missing 30 minutes last month.

I also feel bad about not answering Stu, he asked me about my sobriety and I sort of just changed the subject. I can't say that I am still using to him, otherwise I'd be lying to him. I sent him a video clip. It was probably a bit snippy of me but I don't care.

I invited a man over to relieve some stress. It gave me a bit of energy afterwards but I feel used in a way. I puked all over my bed giving him head and now am spending my time at the laundry mat.

Good thing I only drank bone broth and had a sandwich otherwise it would be a lot more chunkier. Writing this out only sort of enhances my disgust. He just absorbed it as if it was nothing. I think he thinks I have a puking fetish now or something but I don't care.

I feel resentful still having to clean with 46 hours clocked this month and it is still the 24th. I feel like this means I can plan my own stuff now but I know that I should probably press my mom about talking to Elizabeth over at the apartment complex I want to live in.

I bought a new Notepad for my ToDo list. It has dates on it and I figure that is probably a good determiner of what is my free time at the end of the day.

I am sort of prepping my mind to be on my own again.

As for Robert, we've not talked since his mom died, I consider him a friend but I think for the sake of our egos it is better for us not to meet up again.

I don't trust my prescriber enough to find alternatives through him. I think some of those issues are permanent which sucks. so, I am trying to deal with that.

I am not at all convinced you're not a bot/ai so I am not sure how valuable the reply is but, at least it is keeping things cohesive for the most part.

PS.

I kissed an Arcturian.