Word of the Day: 小切手

I am too tired to be standing at my work desk right now. I have gathered a lot of time, which I am pretty happy about, and Jahon is asleep so I can relax for a bit. He got very sleepy from the indica so, I think he's finally napping properly.

I feel bad I sort of fucked up food but I wasn't really prepared to cook anything. He said we were going to go to the nearby food court but he just ended up passing out. So I sort of cooked the foods I normally eat but because it was in the fridge for so long, I had to peel off bad parts of the onions and I think the mushrooms also went bad too.

I don't worry about wasting the food, I got to prepare it properly for a meal, other than the salt spilling all into the cucumber concoction.

I don't really have the money for coffee right now, but I feel like, I deserve a treat for how well I am doing right now.

I do notice my schedule is sort of weird now, I have a lot of extra time but a lot of the top priorities are not completed. I am sort of typing this out for today but I am just commenting about yesterday. I have to pay my internet bill as well so, I really couldn't afford the coffee. I have to try my best now today, to get caught up.

I feel pretty confident about that but I am also still sort of tired, also my human doesn't really want to make myself " prettier " really. That is basically a good chunk of tasks right now.

Shave legs, lotion, take care of face, pluck hairs, the nine yards.

So while it isn't difficult really, it is more mentally difficult because, I don't know, do I not feel like I deserve it? Maybe not being hyper busy makes me feel too much and I dislike being the vulnerable now?

Is it because the last guy I slept with made me feel like shit? Or what? I have no idea. I only know that he probably won't come back and I am trying not to feel like an idiot. So I am just maintaining. It is about as difficult as it was in school, just a different kind of difficult.

Unfortunately all the videos has made the phone too heavy so I must spend some time actually going through the files, I think I need to upload whatever is not too personal on my Youtube channel then I can figure out what to do with the rest after that.

It is 7pm, I was able to eat well today. I finished all my juice and coffee. I now just have tea. I really need water now but I don't have time to gather water right now. Yes, it is basically like a 3rd world country here since drinkable water is not as easily accessible. Yes, we have water to wash things and to bathe ourselves, but it is not suitable to drink.

I can't do anything about it right now so I am just focusing on my Todo list.

Vocal keeps on bothering me about paying my subscription but I don't have room on my Buy/Sell list for another 2 days. That also means, I will probably not eat since, buying food takes from my blank slots as well.

I have 53 minutes on my timer. I only have 6 more Human Tasks so, I will focus on those before I work on " For Tomorrow "