Word of the Day: もったいぶる

I can't remember what I wrote before this since I have been going through my old stories here, renaming them to fit my " Word of the Day " format.

I do worry that I sort of have it out of order because of the Ai tag. I guess it doesn't matter, Until I can compile the stories into a " book " on here, it doesn't really matter.

I am pretty sure that function will become available in the future but I don't know if it will be before my membership dries up. If they do it beforehand, I might renew my membership. I just write here out of habit since, even though I have complained about this in the past, the simplicity of the input system makes it easy to just sit down and write stuff on.

I know I am overworking right now since I am becoming more and more dependent on weed but I am thinking that it is probably temporary since I have the stress of moving. Once I am situated somewhere, I guess studying won't be a bad thing. But right now it is like the most stressful thing to switch gears to study.

Also study I realize is just reading a damn book. I mean, I am just going through the book and writing down every other word as a note since I don't know what they mean. I never thought I would be getting into anatomy at this time of my life. I sort of squirm over some parts of the anatomy book because thinking of it is hard to do for too long without overthinking about it.

Also on a practical note, I don't know how much is too much info on a topic. I mean maybe it is just simply understanding what the word means rather than understanding the function or the interconnectedness of each part of the body; the adnexa of things.

I have organized my notes and color coded sections so I know what they are:

• White is Japanese
• Green is Medical Coding
• Pink/Red is Anatomy
• Purple is the Guidelines for Medicare/Medicaid

I watched a youtube video on a girl who made her own tabs on the CPT book and said it saved her like 15 minutes with book look up. I like tricks and tips like this, from someone who has been through the studying process.

I am learning from a mixture of E-books, paperbacks and ChatGPT. I am just hoping that the Composition books can be used well enough, maybe I need to update my organizing style. I guess that is the real test here for this job: how organized is your brain?

They've talked about imposter syndrome even in a profession like this but I am not at that level yet. I am still just sort of buzzing around the studying process, I don't know how I'll even battle that now.

I think I am not hungry anymore. I either drank enough coffee to appease my hunger pangs, or the phenomenon was just from being stressed.

I still need to do my budget planner since it is the end of the month and I have to see how well I saved up and such. I know I made more this month so I am probably goo but I just want to know exactly how well I did.

I think I also want to spend some time just reading on Vocal today as well. I want to participate in this community appropriately and not just expect people to read my work without me experiencing their journeys.