Word of the Day: 騙された

It is hot today, I am struggling to be comfortable and it isn't even the peak of summer yet. I hope there is an air conditioning in my new apartment otherwise I am going to have a lot more nose bleeds this summer.

I am not really sure what to write since I am just trying to hustle to get paperwork in for this apartment.

I woke up too early for the hustling though so I have to wait like 3 hours before places actually open up. I guess that is a perfect amount of time to write a Vocal story.

I have been so happy with Reo lately. I mean I still don't feel 100% with it but I think it is because we're so far apart but, at least I have something to look forward to. We're texting every day and I feel so happy or euphoric with it.

I know I said he wasn't really my type before, but I feel like his personality and availability sort of makes it better. Also, I think we're both just ready to be in some sort of relationship so we're gravitating towards each other. If it doesn't work out I mean, at least we tried. The only thing I can see really being a problem is if we have no In-Real-Life chemistry or the children thing never gets settled.

I wonder who will visit who? I don't really have the money so, I feel like it would be more natural for him to visit me the first time, but once I get an actual medical coding job, I can save money to visit him the next time.

I know that I haven't told anyon about Reo yet either because I am not wanting to spoil anything. My family is sort of notorious for bullshit and I don't want to occur any hazing ritual from them.

Not only that, there is a possibility that he is not the one and all these feelings and actions are just infatuation or.. kind of more tragically, we might not be able to meet.

Ai had Keys and Rental Agreement pop up in my keyboard and I am thinking that I might hear back from the apartments tomorrow. At least I hope that is the case.

If for some stroke of bad luck, I am unable to move anywhere because of my criminal record, I will at least have medical coding and be able to earn the money I need to move somewhere or at least think of something else to do. It does suck living with my mom but, it isn't hell anymore since we came to and understanding. Plus, I am just like really sure Medical Coding is going to be something substantial for me to move forward in my life.

This is a very personal confession but, I am unable to orgasm and I get headaches when I masturbate. I am hoping it isn't a serious condition or something like that but it is still worrying if it is benign. It prevented me from climaxing and it is in the back of my head near my neck so, I am like, " Am I going to become paralyzed? "

I am sort of bored today, I am just waiting to possibly hear back from Evans Crossing OR Springbrook. I almost don't know what to do with myself but perhaps I should focus more on self care and cleaning today.

I had a dream of my mom's old boyfriend. He was telling me " You're not going to make it. " On the contrary, though this is not a pleasant dream, I feel like it means that I am closer to my goals and the devil is just trying to dissuade me.