Am i Demon-possesed?

On my journey to trying to understand the development of schizophrenia I've endured over the last five years, has given me the ultimate question. Am I demon-possessed? Let me begin by expressing the psychosis I was in five years ago It started when I was living away from family. Now, it's important to not that the brain and mind are interchangeable and schizophrenia is a brain disease. From what I've been told and the major consumption of research it is a chemical imbalance in the brain that has been brought on by stress, trauma, genetics, environmental factors such as an emotionally distressing event, drugs, and psychological factors.

Now, when I was first diagnosed I immediately felt I was listening to God talk to me and tell me that I was the next chosen one here to save the world from its evils. Evils that include the world not being as Jesus Christ himself wanted and died for it to be. I was told by the voices that I was Mary Magdalene reincarnated and I was here to seek revenge for my beloved Jesus Christ and since there was hidden gospels by me never told it was my duty to find them and give them back to the world. Now, this is very unique voices that went threw my mind, delusions and hallucinations. However, they did get dark and heavy. The mission as the voices in my mind called them was for me to become famous because those people know the truth and are all in numerous secret societies that make sure we as a population the ones who don't have fame and fortune are excluded from it. So, that they can rule the world. Now, the only person who was to know of this secret was my mom. Who was Mary reincarnated.

Somehow she telepathically could read my mind. Then, I started hearing the voices of the the people I met in real time read my mind and tell me their darkest secrets. So, that I may forgive them and they would be forgiven. So, I was constantly in my head or a deep psychosis for about a year until i was put on medication and as time went on the voices softened and my mind went a blur. So, due to experience. Once I awakened from a deep state of psychosis, I was told that I had schizophrenia. Now, at first I thought and so did my family think I was demon-possessed.

Allowing other heavy thoughts to grapple in my mind. Yet, because of my lived experience. There is evidence based on the right medications given to me that I plainly have a psychological disorder developed because of a stressful environment I was in. I was plainly and emotionally distressed due to a relationship, school, and work being at the top of my priorities. Why did these these voices form? I think it is evident that it is psychological. Every thought that I had led me down a rabbit hole of delusion. I was trying to keep up with reality but since my mind is naturally a thinker it ran out of battery.

It is not that one possessed, it is one trying to make sense of their reality. Trying to fit into a reality they thought was for them. This happens to a lot of people who are thinkers and can be highly intelligent introverts. I know this to be true because I have lived experience. My experience of psychosis matters to the study of it. For those who are experiencing this dilemma, one you are not alone. Please, seek help. It’s okay to ask for help it doesn’t make you less them in fact it makes you more intelligent.