Word of the day: 講座

So I did the whole free lesson with the Swiss-German man, he was very nice and what not, but I feel like I won't be able to help him with his language goals. I am not sure he really has language goals as much as life goals.

He seems to want to pass some sort of flying test for flying helicopters so, I am completely illiterate when it comes to that. I tried to direct him to some language schools or to the airplane museum nearby to see if there might be some resources for him there but there was definitely a slight language barrier so, I wasn't sure what I should do about that. I think he was annoyed slightly but was just going with the whole thing. I think also the fact that it wasn't paid for, he wasn't voicing any of his annoyances.

I would love to help him out but, it seems like he is just going to be here for a few months to do his journeyman stuff and get a commercial helicopter license. But he didn't request another lesson via the website so I am wondering if everything we talked about was just lip-service to save face in a public place.

I am sort of oblivious or not responsive to such a courteousness. I don't care what people around me think of me, unfortunately which might have made him uncomfortable.

I really feel like I am just going to tell him I am sick on Tuesday just as a friendly reminder that he has to pay for the lessons actually.

My mom came home talking about the oncologist. I guess her doctor wants to check her for cancer. It is a bit of scary revelation but not a confirmation of anything.

I am able to stream on Twitch again, they said that my graphics card was an issue but that wasn't the case, it was actually me needing to update my computer.

It is so odd what breaks down when you need to update.

I dreamt my favorite tarot card reader dunked her head in some soup. There was really long noodles and weird umbrella shaped mushrooms.

it was very strange but I have been just sleeping a lot lately.

Even when walking home today I had to rest a few times before I made my way home. I mean I want to say it is because I am fat but I was able to walk that much for a while even being at this weight so it makes me think it is something else.

I messaged my student that I wouldn't be able to meet him but he replied back that he'd like to reschedule so it is leaving me to wonder if I misread the room. Luckily I did get some TOEIC books so I can look over those before meeting with him again. If I didn't feel so shitty I would be more ecstatic about the developments but my body is making me have a hard time.

I am depressed and perhaps that is what is making it difficult. It is affecting my whole body so it is hard to just shake it off. But, I guess I can sort of fast during this time and what not since I don't have energy to do anything. Perfect time to have an excuse not to cook.

People are messaging me and not writing anything back, it is really odd. I don't know what to think about it. I just want my energy back so I can actually figure out shit properly again.