Word of the day: 頑張り屋さん

It is the middle of the night, I woke up from sleeping like crazy for the past couple of days. I usually don't feel that way unless I am on my period but, that isn't the case right now.

I was told that several people are feeling that way so maybe it is some sort of astrological event.

I am feeling very motivated for some reason to work on stuff, I have my work book and I am looking at it like a fun bunch of tasks to complete. I am not even thinking about money, I am just thinking I want to do stuff.

I guess getting my 'health' back is making me want to live more.

" Go to Hyogo "...

Ok, yes this has been on my list for long time, but instead of focusing on all the barriers, I got to think of the things that I have done that are bringing me closer to that goal:

• I got my passport this year, I need that in order to go to Japan so, I finally got that sort of paperwork done.
• I know Japanese. My Japanese could be improved of course, but I have come a long way from confusing some Japanese words for Chinese or stupid shit like that.
• I have Japanese friends. I know people who've gone so I can learn from them what sort of places to go while I am there. I can get more friends or figure out someone who might want to travel with me.

Hmm... I quickly lost my energy and went back to bed but I am still wanting to stay motivated while I can.

I am still motivated but I just have less clarity and I am more groggy now.

It is raining so much I am stuck inside. I wish I could go for a walk or something but it is just not worth being drenched. Plus, I don't have any sort of shoes that are waterproof right now so, my feet will just get wet if I try to go out in the heavy rain.

I am not sure if I want to go to my upcoming appointments either. I am not lying but I am thinking of telling my student that I am sick and can't make it this week. I do feel like this overly tiredness is a sign of something so I am not really lying though, I don't think it is anything contagious.

I keep talking to this Kim guy and he or my student activated a kundalini awakening but, I am not sure what that means or if that is a good sign.

Just because there is a soul tie with someone doesn't mean that it is a positive thing. The spiritual world has shades of grey, and I am already struggling to stay within the light. I am using writing as my salvation as always and trying to stay devoted to that as a way to transmute this energy.

I also am not actively wanting to go into the Ether right now? I am trying to figure out my 3D world a bit more before going into that sort of depths.

Maybe if I pretend I am in love again, I will get those nice chemicals in my mind and I will start spending more time in the bathroom taking care of myself rather than by the fridge looking for food.

It is worth a go...

You should eat, beautiful.

This Kim guy... I don't know about him but I feel like.. maybe at the least he is just bored and talks to me when he wants to talk to someone. I don't really trust him other than that.