Word of the Day: つまみ

I shouldn't be opening up another story right now, but I feel like I need to still get things off my chest, I still have pieces of my soul that want to be heard.

Maybe it is the drink I am having, maybe I am panicking with all that I told everyone. I am more worried because I haven't told my mom.

I think it is that I don't want to be sitting at this chair right now. I think it is the chair. It is one of those fold out ones that are stiff as a board and makes you feel like you're sitting on a park bench.

I am also listening to Celtic cat music ( don't ask me, the algorithm thought that was what I needed. )

It is still a challenge to find the video. I guess that is my first task. With 55 minutes on the clock.

I'm actually having a hard time getting into the video. I keep laying down saying, I'll watch it after I finish this other video. But either way, I guess I should keep my golden rule or utilizing my Todo list. That is my one constant rule for myself so, at least keep my own rules. I'll put kind of step by step process of what I need to do for homework so it is more doable.

I accidentally took too long of a nap and now it is 1 pm. I don't think I'll have time to do laundry today. I figure I slept because I didn't eat anything and I was just drinking stuff so, I am doordashing something close by to nibble on for my meal of the day. I do have food in the fridge but I just don't want to cook right now.

I also want to take a shower but, I have yet to clean my tub. I have been wanting to clean it for 2 days now, forsaking cleaning it with just taking a shower myself in it.

It isn't super dirty but, it's due for cleaning so, I feel like I am just slacking all over the place. I guess that is what being is school is, not having time for anything other than that.

I hadn't thought that perhaps my eldest niece being in town sort of affected me. She's at my ex sister in laws place, which is within walking distance of me. Unfortunately though, I am running late on everything so, I didn't really have time to go visit even if I wanted to. Plus, her mom is having sort of a hard time right now and since we're not family anymore technically, I don't want to interrupt their personal family time.

It is 5 pm and I haven't finished any homework yet. I am actually struggling with it and this was my worst worry. I was hoping that the only thing that would be hard was the actually doing it, not having to figure out how to do it or understand concepts. I just keep downing mike's harder lemonade's hoping the stress doesn't build in my system. I am also staying pretty faithful to my timer and not oversleeping through it ringing.

I did finally talk to my mom about all the plans for this coming week I have so, that was something that got finished on my list. Also she was very receptive to it and didn't have any extra plans so, it wasn't interrupting anything.

Drinking all these drinks are sort of making me hot in the apartment. I am sweating a bit in these warm clothes and feel the need to change into something more summery.