Word of the Day: 繰り返す

I am starting to collaborate with an additional writer who is willing to check my Japanese Blog and make sure that my Japanese is readable. I am just trying to figure out what I want to have written in Japanese.

Since I am not hiring them outright I am not expecting a lot but also because of that, I am wanting to do my best to write in Japanese myself so they just have to correct it rather than translating directly.

I am probably going to provide them an English translation as well so they can know what I am trying to convey but I am hoping through all this trouble, I will be able to learn Japanese more clearly. I should've done this with Russian but I never bought those Russian letter stickers for the keyboard.

I guess that is an excuse but also because I feel like if I continue to learn Russian, I will probably look for a Russian boyfriend then after that I will be reminded of Jahon in some form or fashion then be retraumatized all over again.

I guess I can say the same for Japanese but that is more of a sadness than a fear. I have fears learning Russian. The consequences and the dedication. I am dedicated to learning Japanese, but can I say the same for Russian? I don't feel like there is anything pushing me to learn it. I am not an outright fan of the culture. I find some things about it charming though. I like Hedgehog in the Fog, pickled beats aren't bad, and well I think I have respect for Russian views of intelligence or rigorousness around it.

They also have a humbleness spread thin around their ideologies like marmite on toast. Mind you, this is just the impression of an American who doesn't really know anything.

The impression is... good, but I am not thrilled and also the consequences of learning it means that I'll eventually have to love it.

With that love I usually found a way of figuring out what I needed in order to learn the language I was learning and what sort of effort it would take. Maybe it isn't the lack of love that is missing from my life lately, maybe it is just the perspective of the time it takes to get to the point I managed in Japanese. It is no easy thing to do.

Maybe once I get a blog going with Japanese and English at a nice pace, I can maybe spend some time learning the basics in Russian.

I like some Serbian songs and I noticed some similarities between the languages, I feel like I was able to listen to some root words and understood it, like the word " Get acquainted with someone " and " I like something "

I feel myself forgetting the words every day though; it is a very sloshy slope up the hill for that. I keep slipping down and have to maintain movement otherwise suffer losing all my progress. I guess I had to keep doing that until I get the words into full term memory.

I need to stop watching weird Russian Memes and actually watch a movie or something. Rewatch I am dragon and try to listen to the words.

I am glad that it isn't as hot today, but it is barely June so, I am expecting to be wearing what t shirts I still have. ( I got rid of some clothes recently and haven't had time to buy new ones yet. )

Now to work on my Medium Article.