Word of the Day: 配信

I am not sure if I used this word already but it is a very common word. It is what is used to call streamers (haishin-sha)

I am a haishin-sha or, I was a haishin-sha before my computer started breaking down. Now I can only write but I do feel determined to express myself in this way since my artistic expressions are being limited by technology and circumstances.

I love art. I found myself admiring cooking reels thinking, " How simple yet elegant recipe. "

It is a cabbage halved, fried in butter before being boiled/steamed using white wine. With milk and cheese sauce poured over the top of the cabbage. It seemed like something I'd want to try.

I feel like that is something I'll enjoy doing in my new apartment. Go on random food trips and cook random dishes I see to determine if they are any good or if there would be anything I would change.

This combination doesn't live in my head, the closest dish I can think of is stuffed cabbage rolls, but that has tomato sauce and rice with it.

" I think rice would go with this. "

reading the Japanese comment, I felt like that made the most sense for this mellow dish. It would turn into some sort of real comfort food.

I can't really cook anything now. My meals must be discussed with my mom as to avoid food waste and who has to clean. Plus, my mom doesn't like the same foods that I do.

I am lovingly eating my takuan by myself. These huge pieces that would probably feed like 20 people in kimbap rolls if I knew how to make those.

I don't really have any friends but I feel like if I live alone, I could maybe get into the habit of entertaining some of my old friends. I mean I can't even invite anyone over to my house because my mom is a covert narcissist and doesn't want to reveal her she-cave to the rest of the world.

I am stressed and using gummies to cope, I don't like this feeling. I know it isn't because I am hot, I mean it is like 97 degrees today but I was plenty energetic today so I don't think saying I am doing it because I am wiped out is entirely true.

I guess I am mentally tired today. I love my mom but it is very tiring being around her everyday.

I can't move around the house as I would like and as much as I love the dog too, she limited my exercise with her neediness.

I can't wait until I am by myself and I can sprawl out throughout the apartment and be able to tidy things as I like/need. I found out my one sole Patreon person gave me a "bonus" this month and I am so appreciative of that.

It makes me think that I need to update there sometime soon just to explain the condition my computer is in.

I thought that this one channel on discord would be ok, it is not. It has so many people just spamming. It reminds me of the mindless bumping threads on Gaia Online.

Wheat...Bothering... tide, ripple drainage. Scry forage navigate.

Been unable to go into the Ether for a while and I feel like trying to do that now seems sort of reckless. I have a private book that I write in for that in particular but I don't remember the last time I went and used it.

I only have like 30 minutes before I have to take my medication. I am sort of sad because I guess I feel like just work is taking its toll on me. Work like my blog, exercising, trying to maintain relationships. It's hard.