Word of the Day: 梨

I feel Yuuichirou for some reason, I don't need to talk to him though, it is probably because of the nerves.

Ah yea, he was so stressed I think, he went rabid. Just flashback to memories, you know? I allow myself to process them here but, it is weird because processing them with Jahon, I can say them out loud, but the way he is perceiving everything is like that one tortured ghost on the subway from the movie Ghost.

I mean, he is the one that teaches Patrick Swayze's character how to move things, but he sort of goes crazy after he realizes he can't smoke cigarettes anymore.

My tongue is still numb, I have to go pee soon. I was talking to several people on hellotalk. There was this one lady from Beijing, she was talking about real estate with this other Japanese guy. I thought it was very interesting because they were talking about all the paperwork involved and such and the different fees, I didn't understand enough to know whether she was critizing Japan or explaining China. Chinese are very direct anyway, I do appreciate that about them since Japanese are very tight lipped about things.

Well, I feel like it shouldn't matter really.

I am listening to my usual tarot card reader. I am sort of faithfully in her evening lives. I just need to get to work on the back of the todo lists. I have to finish the front of them first though so I feel like it is never ending, but ever piece of paper I earn, I get excited. I am just trying to get everything done while I have energy. I do have some limitations but I don't mind. It is all to learn how to deal with what is going on.

I am an INTJ, so my efforts are usually more cerebral. That is why it is often attacked in the 3D but I am so glad I am free right now. I am not really hungry but I feel like the pears are finally delicious now.

I am back to 208 lbs which I hate. I was down to 202 a week ago. Did I actually gain weight with Jahon? Omg, well yea I guess he saw that I would just get fat with him. He kept saying that so, I guess that is why he is doing like long ass shifts at work. It is like he works hard then rests super hard.

Ah, I notice that the discord server is gone. I might've gotten blockd from Scholarship Owl. I guess. I am trying to remember which email I subscribed with. I also dislike that I have to go through the elaborate process of recovering my credit card info from them. But it will probably be done by 5 am today.

Great. Now I am trying to figure out how to get back to my Todo list. I am at school right now so I don't know what I can really accomplish here.

Of course. I remember you.

What am I supposed to do with this? I wrote a few things, things I quickly unsent. I don't know if italics was really necessary but, I am pretty happy that there was some dialog at all. He's something else. He spared me a lot of grief though. I am very aware of that. But he came here, I am grateful. I wanted to visit him but he keeps going back and forth so, I can't keep up.

I am very hungry now. I am probably going to make some miso soup.

Sprite is too sweet. Of course it bothers me what Jahon said. I mean, I've been ridiculed in many languages...