Word of the Day: 郵便番号

I am helping this woman Nancy with Japanese, which is interesting, I mean obviously she is having a hard time converting to Japanese, which is fine, it isn't for everyone. I love Japanese but, I refuse to like, limit myself to that, you know? I mean, I have studied it for like 20+ years, never been to Japan or anything so, I feel I haven't been adequately compensated.

I mean, that is the only way you know if you're ripped off right? If the exchange isn't correct? I saw a woman in jail who was thrown in there for making a very simple mistake in her paperwork, but because it was for a company, she had to go to federal prison.

I guess that is the thing though, right? I mean you just try to function as you can in there. It isn't a spa or beauty parlor, but I guess it is an "escape" if you need an alibi for something going on on the outside.

I am needing to clean the kitchen most of all, I haven't really bothered to figure out the living room as I am still deciding on some stuff and using it as a general creative area. But I feel like, letting the kitchen go is sort of.. dirty.

I am actually doing pretty good otherwise.

Yea I mean.. I guess I don't really need to think right now, do I? I am just typing as I have like 3 more pages to do.

I can't even type in Japanese right now so, I am just going.

I feel the lesson is going over well. I have the timer on so that is useful.

Nancy got upset with me, but I guess it is fine.

Also the thing is, why waste time talking to someone who pretends to not know a language?

If she is really a complete beginner, the resistance feels weird. Or it is just simply she has no affinity.

Either way, it isn't my problem.

I guess I am glad that I got through that, but I'm feeling like, she was just jealous and hated paying me.

I am satisfied either way, it is fine.

But I did wake up too late. I need to actually start get more ordered a bit, but ti makes it hard when, the living room is a mess. I mean I am maintaining my Todo list and scheduler.

But I can't lie, I am 2 days behind on it and I feel all sorts of ways about that.

Really typing isn't the problem, it is that.. Well I don't care about talking about feelings. You could be funny or entertaining, and that makes more sense to me in my mind. Probably comes from a people pleasing place.

That sort of nervous laughing or, just finding the absurdity of life entertaining.

I guess that also gave me more power in that situation because, I am sort of holding my stance. It is like, I know what I know. I don't need to pretend I don't, but I also don't need to over explain myself.

Either way, I am just finishing this story and going back to my Todo list.

Well I mean, if you don't trust the cops, the cops already fucked you up several times, that would be like abuse to actually rely on them.

It is like, yes daddy, please continue to beat the shit out of me.

No one wants that, some people agree to it, but no one wants to be beaten. It is from some sort of perversion of power that those sort of situations occur.