Word of the Day: 堕落

I finally got to meet my great nephew. His name is Everett. He looks so much like his mom, it is funny. He just has blue eyes instead of brown.

I am glad I am not high when I met him but he is a really nice boy, I feel. He doesn't cry or fidget to much. His nose is most adorable. Also, he concentrates on stuff. AH, he's an Aquarius, no wonder I feel that way about him.

I think the thing I do wrong a lot is a rip out pages of my todo lists or schedulers when I use them for a contrary purpose to what it is for. I need to stop doing that but I do sometimes need some spare paper so, that is mostly why I do it. Also I like to show off my todo list to people to show what I have done so far.

I am just listening to French pop music because that is as mellow as my mood will allow right now.

I decided to stream again but it was a mistake since I was so tired from nothing lol, nothing at all. I cleaned, I met my nephew, and I got a little high.

I guess not every day needs to be super entertaining, plus finding out that I can get medical coding books at the library makes it easier for me to:

• Actually study for the test.
• sneak away from the house to get weed.

I am not going to waste my time this way, I have several " Notebook " pages so, It will be useful to actually learn the stuff that they are saying that I should.

I was just thinking how it is crazy that phones, tablets and computers can literally be used as anything in this day and era. I am using my phone as a music player right now. I am using my computer as a diary. I am watching videos on my tablet. And I just alternate between them in my room, checking messages at each terminal when I have the energy to and it is appropriate for the device.

I worry that these people might be stirring me in the wrong way but I feel like, I haven't really explored this option to know if that is a fact. I need money and this might be it.

Of course I wish I could be doing something else but if I can figure it out and work on it until I can't, then I probably will do well. I took my art and streaming as far as it could go without money so I need to try to get to the same point with this medical coding to see if it will be beneficial or not.

Instagram is just showing me Asian men influencers who take off their shirts and stare at the camera. I can't even get excited anymore since I no longer am able to orgasm. I mean mentally I am like, " that hot " but my body doesn't react at all.

On a more positive note, I have been eating super healthy today: pickled beets, cottage cheese, apple, corn, nectarine, tangerine.. I doubt I will lose any weight but at least my body can enjoy the health benefits of eating fruits and vegetables mostly today.

I did have chicken nuggets and stuff for my protein but it is ok, I mostly ate healthy though I did eat quite a bit today. These are the things I need to be eating anyway. Even if I didn't lose any weight, eating this healthy should be the goal.