Word of the Day: 添削

I am taking back up streaming and decided that I will do Fridays and Saturdays while I work on School work the rest of the week. Which I think will help but I feel like I will be relying on my mom quite extensively.

I also stopped taking my abilify recently. I didn't mean to, but I just accidentally forgot to take it for a few days and then by the 3rd day I was like, " Maybe I don't really need it. "

I actually feel pretty good with all things considered. I feel like I can concentrate more and not feel weighed down. I do feel like a little " too " energetic but I live alone and I can use that energy on my projects or cleaning without bothering anyone with it so, I don't really see the need to take the meds.

I haven't done weed either since the pot shop keeps going out of stock of the stuff I like. I promised myself that if that is the case, I leave the shop without buying anything since everything went south is went I went with another gummy and it affected me poorly.

I have been so happy lately too and eating happily each day and watching youtube.

The streams I have been having has had at least 7 people in them lately so that is also good.

I do need to work on the commission that is due on the 9th but I am trying to stick to my schedule as much as possible, which makes this Sunday's free day sort of difficult; I want to just work consistently on one thing but going forward that will not be possible.

The only thing I wish is that I was thinner and that I had a boyfriend or a fwb that I could share my time with.

I am lucky enough to still have leftover funds in my savings too but I feel like the next thing I am saving for is a new mattress. If I have a man over to my house I will need to have a proper bed for us to sleep in. I currently have a futon with a very thin pad. It is not stable enough for a lot of movement. It is comfortable enough for me right now but I sort of considered using this Labor day to go shopping for one so I can take advantage of the deals that will be happening.

I also finally used the laundry mat in my apartment building, which makes me feel good about it. It cleaned everything without a hitch. They only thing is that it's in the basement and it is pretty creepy looking down there. Also there are like holes in the walls and missing tiles on the floor, but the machines are clean and work just fine. It costs 2.50 to do one load which is sort of steep but it is fine if I need to do my laundry when my mom or grandma is busy.

There are a lot of things I need to do on monday but.. I told myself that I would only visit the pot shop when I go grocery shopping to make the trip worth it but, I might just go whenever just for a good walk. otherwise I might consider not buying so much in one trip and getting only a few things at a time so I can properly visit the shop.

I am so happy I am such a good cook but it is making me fat. I get to eat the foods I love though so it makes me happy.