Was I Just A Phrase To You ?

One day you were my home; the next, you packed up and left.

A few days ago, his mother called me faking her emotions that how she misses me. I realised that it was fake because she did not miss me for 2 months and all of a sudden she contacted me. There was this trap she prepared unknowingly for herself and her family, she told every single of her relatives about me being the future wife of her son. Recently, one of her relatives were staying at her house, they asked her about me and so, she called me to ask if I want to do a video call to show my face.

WHY !? WHY THE HELL WILL I FAKE IT ALL ?

I am no more in a relationship with her son and she is trying to save her family's reputation by portraying the love circus! She talked to me for like an hour and I felt so exhausted after the call ended. I wondered how I used to tolerate her family drama and her "crocodile's tears" for 2 years. I am very happy for where I am right now in life but the moment I talked to her, I felt like she completely drained my optimistic energy and I was filled with filth from inside. My former boyfriend and his whole family are like the gatekeepers of hell, they make you hollow from inside. From the moment I went in a relationship with him, all I had to show was sympathy for his messed up family. Giving too much of it, forced my downfall !

WITH HIM IN MY LIFE, I COULD HAVE NEVER SEEN THE SUN....ONLY DARKNESS AND THE FALSE HOPE OF A GLOW IN THE SHADOWS !!

I am curious. If I tell a friend about my questions, then that might brew the same results as gasoline on fire. My friends hate it when I talk about my former boyfriend and act like a sad, old hag.

I do not think of him everyday like I used to a month ago, does that mean he forgot me too ?

What does he think of me now ? Does he hate me ? Does he miss me ? The last time I asked him if he missed me or not was during the new year eve. He said he missed me but didn't love me. What the heaven does that mean ? If he stopped loving me then why would he miss me ? Is it possible to stop loving someone completely ? A SPIDER WEB INDEED !

I heard that he is going to give CUET exam, I wish him luck but I don't know if he has improved his studies or he falls asleep while learning. If he improved, then it's an amazing news but if he didn't then the exam will be a waste.

I just want to ask him about how is he doing now ? Does he have an understanding person to listen and console him in his painful moments like I did ? Does he have anyone to take care of him ?...because his parents are far from doing that.

And finally the most burning question that I wish to ask is that, was he always pretending to be a good guy in front of me ? I saw his real face after we broke up, about how ruthlessly he could objectify women and body shame the one girl he loved and who supported him in his worst.

After the break up, I always trusted the unseen and the future. I had faith that tables might turn and I might get him back but now I simply do not care about it anymore. I will be glad if he regrets leaving me and comes back begging but I will never give him another chance.

WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD ?