The Swan Diary

Today I started my shift feeling very nervous. Basically, I am a manager in a pub in the countryside. Also, I have a secret affair with one of our chefs. Our relationship is on the rocks because I may or have not looked through his phone and read his messages he was exchanging with another girl. I may or have not taken photos of them, as they were in Spanish, and may or have not translated them. Cut long story short I was trying to be honest and admitted to that and he was not happy. The messages he exchanged with other girl were very suspicious, still he made me apologise to him in person and now he needs more time to think about everything.

I did google translate those messages and he is lucky that I have no self-respect otherwise his car would be on fire. He does have a point that I have a trust issue, which obviously is well based. If a man has video calls with another girl but barely messages, you then something is going on? He is really sexy, so the odds are in his favour. Ashamed to admit that I did apologise to him in person, bought him chocolates and flowers and let him through the back door…

Moving forward from my personal life. Country living is so much different than living in the city. Everyone knows EVERYONE, that may be a bad thing but also a good thing if you like gossip and man do they love gossip in the countryside!

Our pub is known in the area as being one of the gayest pubs. Mostly because most of our staff is gay or bi or at least bi curious. There is definitely a club of swingers in this small village as well!

Tonight, we had our wreath making event and believe me there could not have been a more uneventful night apart from the fact that we had too many chef, that refused to do take away food when it was dead quiet, and me being very dramatic because the tension with me and my sexy chef. We had a few regulars in for drinks, the usual. One of them has been drinking since early the same morning.

You know, you cannot even imagine what people say to people that serve them drinks. You could hear the things they will not be able to say in front of their family or anyone at all.

We have this regular lady that comes in nearly every day and basically is our local gossip girl. She will tell you everything you need to know and more! She will also create unnecessary drama by making assumptions and making everyone in the village believe in it!

Our General Manager is a very lovely guy. He can he quite horrible but only when he needs to be, bit straight forward. Very handsome though with great abs and very single. The recent local gossip around is that he does fancy one of our team members.

The girl is so much his minor. He is very pretty but also has a long distance boyfriend. She is unhappy in her relationship as she said. Every time though she speaks about the general manager her eyes would sparkle. She says there is nothing going on between them and I do believe her but what I also do believe in is that they argue like and old couple so maybe they are meant to be.

I am forced to go for brunch tomorrow with them. As if I have nothing worse to do in my current situation than look at 2 people in love. To be perfectly honest I would marry that GM because he is very good looking, and he can sort things out but I am too deep in love with one of our chefs that is a complete dick head to me. Maybe that is what I need. As a woman I have been always having my way. Maybe someone telling what to do and how to behave is not that of a bad thing.