The Sloth in a Blink of an Eye

Waking up to sloths. Lingering on the present confused on where to go in life. Seeing the future ahead of me but unknown to where to start. Results to distraction and separation from the world around me. Look through the phone in search for something motivating. Time goes by as the average person does, you struggle to find the push and drive to keep going. You look over the wants and goals that were created reignite the fire within yourself. No solution is built and the fire or motivation created only lasts for a short period of time.

You lose time to focus on yourself and push aside the time to check in before the day is started. The sluggish sloth has no burst in energy. They revert to their auto responses to use the reserved energy to do the routine. The Mind Hack alters your way of starting your day. Your discipline becomes difficult at first but like a voyage, you travel to live through curiosity.

Traveling across the land and sea to feel sense for the future. The possibilities that give you motivation that pushes you forward. The air so fresh and the heat so refreshing. You started out with fear and overwhelming anxiety to find from the other side that you are actually afraid of everything around you. Afraid of yourself that you have sheltered all the truths so other wont see the real you behind the mirrors and the purity.

All I imagine is the look in your eye when you wake. The feeling I get when I’m next to you. The fear and doubt that plagues my existence. Been so mature and closed off for so long, opening up just becomes my excuse. Excuse not to try harder or be better. Thoughts roll around like a worm creeping inside slowly poisoning the brain.

The rain falls as you wait for the train to arrive. You question life and the reasons to try. The passion, the drive the feeling to move on your own. over and over you go through scenarios in your head questioning which way is the right one. What is best for yourself and what is needed. You lose faith in life and struggle to trust people because you can't trust yourself. Feeling so damaged that even those close begin to make distance from you.

The moments are just the beginning. The thoughts that loop gets tougher to break and the pain begins to hurt more. You blame yourself because you don’t have the strength that's expected to go on. You blame yourself for letting things get to you. You blame yourself for letting people hurt you. As a result, you find difficulty in the basics of living. You attempt to break free only to be taken back into the darkness. Reaching out for any bit of joy and holding on for as long as you can. Until something or someone let’s go once again.

Dogs huddle around to show comfort. Their intuition and instinct is to be there. Not to talk or to play but to just be. Will the words on the board go away or will I have to keep fighting. I wonder what makes me so strong. So capable of love and so worthy of commitment. Lack of connection or interest. So what! Everyone deals with in their own way of their own amount. Just by looking outside of the dark you find the glimmer of hope.

Once your light shines upon it all, in a blink of an eye it’s over. The emotions and stress. The overthinking and pain somehow disappears. Like the presence of a trusted familiar who banishes the intruder that likes to sneak in. In a blink of an eye, everything can change and you can forget what you just went through. Thinking if it was a dream or part of your mind playing tricks. But no. This is reoccurring and our job is to remain consistent. Continue to practice love and inner peace so when it sneaks up and returns. In a blink of an eye you can make it go away.