The Holding Place

Very few people understand the true forces that are at play in the universe. Very few people understand that the foundation of everything ever breathed into life is energy. But even fewer understand how the power of frequency and how it works in the matrix and the force it has in our lives. For example, we often attract people in our lives that meet our frequency and then have the gull to ask why they don't have better people in our lives.

To create change you must first change yourself and thus change your frequency to a higher vibration that allows more of what you want then you don't want. That is truly how the law of attraction works, the universe does not care what you want it is matching your vibrational frequency. And of course, knowing ( not this silly believing in stuff) whatever you want in your life you have the divine right to ask for. You have to use all the powers of the universe to see it come to life. You have to visualize it, create the future in your mind, thus creating what you want in your life not just wishing for it or begging for it.

The earth has many layers of low and high frequency. The lower levels of the universe are where we store our thoughts, and our thoughts are so powerful they turn into " things" that need to have a place to go. We afterall are creators. We are by nature divine beings and that means that everything you think is a " thing" and has to be stored in the lower levels of the universe to be contained. Why do you think we are able to dream up realities when we sleep or when one poor soul is in psychosis. I have learned that people that become schizophrenic may be lost in a of there thoughts turning against them. A world where their mind is holding them hostage and creating realties that they literally become trapped in. Rendering them unable to distinguish from reality. Its a fear like no other when you are unable to trust there own senses or connect with the world around you around them. I was so trapped in these dense place at the hospital I had no idea what was happening to me in the hospital and that seemed to scare me the most. I wanted to be connected to my body and to be able to cummicate with my family and try and get myself better. But I seemed to be in a whole other reality. I tried opening my eyes and closing them in a panic but it did not change anything. All I had was my creator at this time in which I begged to have my mind restored and my mind based in reality. For 6 long days I was tortured like this. Your mind can really become your worst emeny when it is broken and trying to heal itself. I was behaving so strangely they thought I had not come out of the coma as myself and I could be lost. It was horrible for my family to witness.

I have talked about my coma and being delirious. Clearly, I was seeing things and hearing things because of the medication, But I also saw things I can't explain. I know it's quite not Halloween yet but if you are sensitive to scary stories stop reading this.

I saw things I cant explain away and I have to talk about it. Its haunting me. In the ICU it is a very quiet place. Patients are not getting up and walking- they are all in comas. But suddenly I started seeing hospital patients that had died and had not noticed what so ever. I remember seeing one axious patient asking " why am I here" going back and forth back and forth. But there seemed to be a army of patients that had passed away and still remained. An elderly woman loved to stare at my winder and admire my strength from afar. We spoke telepathically we did not have to exchange words. She was pure warmth love and admiration. She was asking me to fight and to have faith, it's something I saw in her eyes I did not have to hear anything.

And then I got stuck in what I believe was a past memory of the hospital and I found myself trapped in it. Everything that has ever happened stays on earth like a footprint or memory. It was something that happened in the 70s I could tell by rather unique look of the ambulances. I looked outside and one ambulance was coming after another begging for help. It seemed to be a medical crisis it was a heatwave that day and there were so many patients that needed to be seen. It was a scene of desperation and choas because the ambulances were lining up trying to get help for their patient. Maybe I created this whole thing up. How the hell am I to know lol. How can I ever know senses are created to deceive you, how could I trust anything I was witnessing in this endless moments of madness.

But I could not excuse all the people who had died and were just wondering around endless and for eternity. What I seemed to understand about this place is that these people were trapped in a lower frequency of hopelessness, depression and utter despair. They were trapped on a lower level of creation because they had surrendered to the negativity and darkness. Many of them had committed suicide and were hopelessly lost. They did not seem to believe they deserved to be anywhere else. People like this can get trapped in what is called referred to by many names across history . Many called it limbo for a time- today we refer to it as " The Land of Darkness" or " the holding place." This is because in order to be freed from this place you muust come to the light. Spirit guides are often desperately trying to convince these souls that they have passed on and they can go home in the loving arms of God. But they stay in they shame trama and I suppose guilt. A soul has to be able to change its frequency to become free of such a place. For many its as simple as letting go of everything that held them here. Let go of all the same anger fear hurt ressentment abuse trama and the wrongs against you. Let go and set yourself free. When I came out of the coma I was finally able to do that. Faced with my own mortality I realized I deserved peace and happiness. I was never going to allow depression to ruin my hopes at experiencing true happiness and contentment.

Often for a soul to get trapped here they have been committing passive destructive and choatic behavior all there lives. For most of their lives they were in a constant state of misery-just like myself to be honest. People in these dark places due to mental illness or a very hard brutal life usually have to be rescued by the light and it is quite the process. Life had been so cruel and broke this person to such a degree that all they know is deep sorrow sadness anger saddness humiliation and the deepeest disappear you could ever imagine. I am an empath and I felt such emotional intensity before and it is powerful. It becomes so powerfully toxic and has the power to destroy your soul and make you forget who you really are. Which is frankly a child of God of the most high. But earth is a very challenging Planet. It is the full of negativity violence and barbarity. In our lives our souls are tested to the highest degree. The souls that volunteered to come here to raise the earths vibration are really feeling it much like myself. They dont want to be here in a place that allows genocide. Madness.

Before you think that God banishes his children to hell this is simply not the case. We all come into earth with spirit guides and angels and once we die they plead with us to come into the light. The entity seems to become too earthbound in these situations and cannot let go of what happened to them on earth or the pain it caused their soul. They cannot rise above these toxic feelings. But they are lost in a timeless eternity and so they do not seem very bothered- very strangely I might add.

The scariest thing I saw was like a 60s old fashion nurse aimlessly carrying a cart around. Perhaps this was all a delusion, I can't prove any of this was real. But I remember thinking all these random people in the hallway walking aimlessly are wearing hospital with hospital bands.

What Force did I use to get out of the hospital? Prayer. I had become completely bed bound. From the time I woke up from the coma someone was whispering in my ear " LORD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH AND MENTAL FORTITUTE TO MAKE IT OUT OF THIS BED." But it was I alone that could create this reality and make it into being. I had to do the work, the end result was not free. I had to have more courage and belief in my abilites then ever. More importantly one must always believe with God all things are possible. I alone healed by body over three months. If I told myself, I couldn't walk well then that was going to be the result. If I told myself, I was going to stay weak and dependent on hospital staff that was going to be my reality. Very few people understand the power we have over our own destinies. Nurses thought I lived in a nursing home and were shocked to know I lived on my own and had a partner. One nurse said when you get home get a social worker. I told her I was a social worker and all I needed was counselling to get over the tramatic event just like everyone else. Remember how powerful you are my friends don't spend yourself unhappy create the world you want to live in; it's your divine right.