Stream of Consciousness
Word of the Day: 雪
It was a hot night. The unbalanced tocking of the ceiling fan. Him raping me in my own bed. I have little to no energy to get up. My vagina sore from hours and hours of penetration. My nerves the next day were completely shot the next day. I slept most of it off. All the pins and needles throughout my body. I offered him my energy so it makes sense that it took quite a bit. I don't think I saw good in him, I think I saw the evil exactly and felt pity for him.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Does it really matter that much
I recently came across the concept of “if you look at a small problem too closely, you are going to make a big deal out of it” which is quite true in a lot of ways because the closer you come to an object, the bigger it looks in your eyes. This quote is very telling, when you consider your relationships and how you interact with different persons. Someone might do something very insignificant but because of the dynamic we have with this person it will push us to make a big deal out of it, meanwhile with another person we would not even bother.
By real Jema2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 石
My mom came home, in a huff. She is too stupid to really follow through with anything. I am pretty sure she doesn't care about her boyfriend if she just abandoned him. Unless he showed his true colors and she had to go. Either way I am glad she is safe if that is the case.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Surviving A Dark Night of the Soul
Credit: Excerpt from my book, The Dictionary of Missing Time Dark Night of the Soul Definition The “dark night of the soul” is a term that goes back a long time. It is a term used to describe what one could call a collapse of a perceived meaning in life…an eruption into your life of a deep sense of meaninglessness. The inner state in some cases is very close to what is conventionally called depression.
By Susan Eileen 2 years ago in Confessions
The Typical Modern Life in the US Remains Disconnected From Nature
I spent the last month in the US visiting my sister and new niece and collecting documents. Applying for a long-term visa in Colombia is complicated and expensive, but I decided to settle at the beginning of the year.
By sara burdick2 years ago in Confessions
Spiritual Awakening
We’ve all been in that thunderstorm whether it was a breakup, a death or some form of traumatic experience. The sort of experience that really makes you step back and reevaluate the path that you’re on, that forces you to do the inner work, that puts that mirror up in front of you so you can truly see who you are. Some of us will lean into that space to view the parts of ourselves that we have been too scared to look at, to ask the questions that we are petrified to hear the answers to and sit with the demons and pain that we have been burying since we were children. Now this experience is not for the faint hearted. This path is one of the most heart breaking, soul crushing experiences that you will ever go through and some of us will dip our toe into those waters and realise just how murky those dark, turbulent waters are. At which point, we remove ourselves from that seat in front of the mirror and run for the hills. The pain of the reflection, the look in those eyes staring back at you with a smudged window showing all the hidden stories to your soul. I have been in both positions. I have dipped my toe into those murky waters many times over the past 10 years and it's only been the past year that I have really sat in that chair with all parts of myself and given each version of me the space to be heard and seen with unconditional love. I have been to hell and back many times in my 40 years, but the past year of my healing journey has been the most heartbreaking and most uplifting era of my life.
By KC2 years ago in Confessions
The Art Of Being Alone
In today's digitally driven society, where social media reigns supreme and constant connectivity is the norm, the concept of being alone has taken on a new level of significance. While many of us crave human interaction and the sense of belonging that comes with it, there is a growing recognition of the importance of solitude in our lives. The art of being alone, once viewed as a sign of isolation or loneliness, is now being redefined as a vital component of personal growth, creativity, and overall well-being.
By Awin Stella2 years ago in Confessions
Smart financing:7 Benefits Of Revenue-Based Business Funding
Smart Financing: 7 Benefits Of Revenue-Based Business Funding Sometimes, getting the money you need to start a business or grow an existing one is hard. Lenders may be wary of approving a personal loan application or requesting a guarantee. Investors like angels and venture capitalists (VCs) want a big return on their money and a piece of the company.
By emma2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 無意味
As I am writing this, I am thinking and trying to transmute what is going on with my life. Missing passwords, constant hacking attempts by family and strangers also trying to find their way into my story, but I still have the pen, I chose that when I decided that I wasn't going to die that day.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Madam Koi Koi of Akanu Ibiam Girl's House. Content Warning.
Madam Koi Koi of Akanu Ibiam Girls' House From the moment I arrived at Akanu Ibiam Girls' House at the age of eleven, I felt an eerie sense of foreboding. The grand gates of the prestigious boarding school closed behind me, sealing my fate. That night, as I lay on the stiff mattress in the dimly lit dormitory, sleep came reluctantly, bringing with it the first of many unsettling dreams.
By Nneka Anieze2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 罠
I know that he doesn't want to be with me. I asked him if he was in the town I was just in, on his motorcycle, on the side of the road. A part of me wanted to jump out of the car I was in and run to him. That was how sure I was; it was just a glimpse, just in the eyes. Imagine me just rolling down the highway towards him. Later on I asked him if he was in the area that day and he confirmed it. He isn't even lying about following me.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
