Steve of Michigan

It's 3 am and I have awoken from another dream about finding you.

I can't keep going on like this, it has been almost 3 years since I last saw you. I can't keep waking up only to find that my dream hasn't come true.

All I have left to remind me of you is your first name, the state you live in, and a couple of photos I have of you.

I don't understand it, I have met so many people on my travels but yet you are the only one that replays in my mind, the rest are simply forgotten.

I haven't been able to get you out of my head and it is messing with me daily.

The thing is, I am not even thinking of you on purpose. It is more like my mind won't let me forget you. As crazy as that sounds. I believe there is a reason for that but I just don't know why yet.

I was heading down the busy main road of Lahaina, Hawaii wearing the wrong kind of clothes for Hawaii weather. The reason why is rather a long story for another time, sorry readers.

Anyways, keeping my spirits high powering down the street with a suitcase in hand singing, I was on a mission to find this thrift store.

A man stopped in the middle of the crosswalk of the road I needed to cross. I remember, his face lit up and a huge smile came across his face.

He walked up to me and stopped me on the sidewalk before I crossed the road. He asked me, "What song are you singing?" I replied, 'Your Body is a Wonderland', by John Mayor.

He then asked me where I was going and if he could join me. So I did, let him join me.

This turned into the best and most interesting four days of my life. All because a man was intrigued by a rather strange and quirky gal, me.

I could write about all of the amazing moments we spent together, like how he made a sand couch for us to sit and watch a movie together on the beach. He had a portable movie projector and a bedsheet from his hotel room.

Holy cow, that was a first. I never knew what I did in life to deserve what kindness he bestowed on me. But I was so grateful. I never got to tell him just how much everything he did and how he treated me touched me in so many ways. I wished I could have experienced it over a lifetime.

He had so much respect for me not only as a person he met but as a woman. He never once made me feel uncomfortable, never treated me as a sexual object, and hell he never tried to make a move on me once in those four days.

Thank you, Steve.

However, things turned sour last night. We got into a disagreement. Those details aren't for y'all to read either.

Steve, I never wanted you to walk away. I didn't have it in me to tell you not to walk away when you asked me, "Do you want to leave?"

I was going through emotions and feelings of feeling unworthy and lack of confidence. So much, that I let go of something that could have been very beautiful.

I regret my response because you left and then I did without a trace.

To only find out, when I got to the next location on my travel list you texted me that you came back for me that night but found that I was already long gone.

Also surprised because you kept the photos of me.

From there, I lost your number due to a broken phone and have been heartbroken ever since. I did my best to try to find you but couldn't.

After tonight's dream, I thought of the best idea to write about my plea to find you.

Please, to anyone reading this if you know him, reach out to me. I want the chance to apologize for disappearing without a trace.

Four days wasn't long enough, I have so much I want to share with you, Steve. You missed so much of who I am. I want you to know the woman I have grown into since our chance encounter.

I pray for a reunion. I pray for more time spent underneath the sunlit sky with you making more memories.

By the way, I still haven't read 'Alchemist', but it's on my list of books saved on my phone.

Can our story be the theme song, 'Against All Odds', by Phill Collins? This will be the most vulnerable thing I have ever done in my life. But, I can't let more time pass by without giving it my all. For you, it is worth opening up my heart for others online to know.