Stay away from me

Stay away because you don’t deserve to hurt me, stay away because I no longer want to have anybody by my side, I am now willing to stand alone and face everything, stay away because I am going crazy and mad and all I know is nothing but how to fail. Stay away because I am tired of myself and i can no longer explain things that are going inside me.

Just stay away.

I didn’t told you to enter into my life but you did. You were the one who came in and left like nothing ever happened. You made me feel special but when you left, it made me loose my worth.

I wonder why I trusted you at the first place, when my brain and instincts were against you. I didn't want to hurt myself but I eventually end up hurting myself the more.

I care about you and I can't just hide my feelings for you, I love you damn it but the only thing that disappointed me was your inconsistency. You texted me one day, but ghosted me for a months and then you suddenly appeared in front of me wishing that I will talk to you in same polite and flirty way that I used to do.

You made me feel less valued and moreover, It's not what I actually want for myself. I wanted to be treated good, I wanted someone who will stay by my side and support and encourage me to do the things that I fear. I didn't want someone who barely think I am his priority. Someone who can be there when I need is actually my ideal type.

But, You weren't even 1% close to my ideal type, but I don't know why I choose to be with you. May be because God wanted me to learn lesson that not everyone will end up with you for your whole life. I knew it was coming that you are going to leave me alone; when you started to ignore my text and wanted me to end the conversation as soon as possible. Then you promised me to text back next day, but that day never came.

I understand if you had lost interest in me but you could have just said that to me. You started to treat me like I am a piece of garbage. Is that all what I meant to you. Knowing that you don't want me the same way that you used to would have hurt me but I would have recovered from that but treating me like this is making me more vulnerable.

Since you have decided what you want, I hope you will stay away from me and never show me your face. I have been there for you but now it's the time for me to be there for myself. I am not letting you or anybody hurt my feelings anymore. You have done what you had to, now I will do what I am supposed to do.

I might be destroyed from inside, but I am very strong. I promise not to fall for the same trap once again. I wanted to be with you but never thought that you will push me away like that. Today our path has become opposite which once used to be the same.

No wonder, why God showed me this truth so early, cause may be he was trying to say, I deserve someone better who understands me and doesn't ghosts me for months and who really want to build a genuine relation with me. I might not even be interested but he shall try until his last breath and I shall be only his at the last and share the memories and life together.

I now no longer want you to be the part of my life. So, stay away.

Stay away because my growth is real and my true potentials are showing up, stay away because I am finally living my happiest era, stay away because I no longer belong to you. You were the one who pushed me away. SO, STAY AWAY.