PLEASE HELP ME SOMEONE, ANYONE!!

Have you ever felt so lost, so angry, so very very tired of fighting for things you had always believed were a God Given Right?

The older I get, the more I see, the more things I have been through, I realize the idea of God Given Rights were nothing more then a limited belief made up when I was young to try to make sense of a world, I so desperately wanted to believe in. I feel myself getting more and more angry at the way the world works. At the fact we are told this is just the way it is, and to stop whining and figure out how to cope with this depressing ass world our rich ancestors created ....And don't forget to smile while you do it too! Human beings are told from birth... We MUST behave in a certain manner in order to get the most BASIC human needs met.

FOOD, WATER, SHELTER, LOVE, UNDERSTANDING, EMPATHY,

A DOCTOR WHEN YOU ARE SICK

So what happens when a person follows all the rules and STILL is not getting their basic human needs met?

What is this human being supposed to do?

She/he must never break the rules, she/he must stay calm, quiet and never EVER raise her/his voice. (Besides the fact, that is the ONLY way anyone will actually listen to them)

He/She cannot go find another human that may be able to help him/her get their needs met, because the RULES say, they MUST go through his/her designated person/DR., who will refer them to another human that the "Doctor" thinks will help

(Or who has giving him/her kick backs to send people to him/her, THATS ALL TOTALLY EXCEPTABLE IN THE RULES OF COURSE. Helping people who need it.....That is NOT in the rules, actually the older I get the more I believe it is actually against the rules).

So what happens when the KICK BACK doctor can't find ANY WAY to help you.... What is the next step??? For Doctors....There isn't one.

After days, weeks, months of waiting and following "the rules" you come to the conclusion there is no other option but to BREAK THE INSAINLY STUPID UNREASONABLE RULES!!!

BUT!

If you dare break one of these man made rules that make absolutely no sense what so ever, you could/WILL be shunned from the very place you seek help from. The other humans DO NOT CARE for you, you are a RULE BREAKER and you & your children deserve what ever horrible luck falls upon you.

NO ONE WILL HELP YOU! No matter how big your problem may be.... With only the chance of your death, they will bend the rules, revive you, walk away and say... "Good Luck Rule Breaker, you deserve what ever you get... Because you! BROKE THE RULES!!!

This is the society I grew up in, I was taught to believe in ALL the RULES, to never ever question them, no matter how clearly bias or insane they are THEY ARE THE RULES AND IT IS THE LAW!

The Law that allows sick people to go untreated even when they do follow the rules. The Law that allows poor people to remain homeless because they broke the rules at some point in their lives. LAWS that allow Disabled people to be treated as less then because these "LAWS" were written over a 100 years ago, AND THESE ARE THE RULES THAT MUST BE FOLLOWED!!!! Cuz if not, YOU are CLEARLY the problem!!!!

As I sit here afraid that perhaps I just may go blind in one eye because my family doctor, along with 3 other doctors from the ER and an Urgent Care Clinic an hour from my home, keep telling me there is nothing wrong with my eye, even when I tell them there is! It super blurry when I look out of my right eye..... It has now been 2 weeks without being able to use my right eye without it being EXREAMLY painful. NOT ONE of these human beings think the loss of my vision is a big deal, at least not enough to refer me to a doctor that may actually know something about what could be happening to my EYE.....

THE RULES CLEARLY STATE A HUMAN BEING MUST BE IN EXTREAM PAIN & SUFFER FOR OVER 2 MONTHS FOR A DOCTOR TO START TO PRETEND TO TRY TO HELP THEM FIGURE OUT THERE ISSUE. I MUST GO BLIND, MY SON MUST NEVER GET THE USE OF HIS LEG BACK....because when I was young I broke some rules and this will be my KARMA for life.....AND WHAT I DESERVE, for breaking these UNIVERAL LAWS....MAN MADE UP

I feel like the Universe will never ever forget that, and I will be living my BAD KARMA FOREVER, and DESERVE every embarrassing, demoralizing, humiliating situation that comes my or my children's way.

Because I broke the rules before I truly understood what it would mean for me and my children.

My question to you is.....How many rules have you broken in your life....??? Do you ever wonder when your Karma is coming to get you, because ever since my son lost the use of his left leg from a bad cough, I have been wondering how long my children will have to deal with all my bad Karma. All the rules I broke when I didn't know, it would be them who would have to suffer for it!?

I'm sorry Marcus I DIDN'T KNOW, My Karma would come back on you, I wish I could take all back, take it all back, take it all back from you......