Planning for Tomorrow

The apartment complex I applied to reached back out and it seems to be good news? I am not sure if i am accepted or not yet, but at least they read my application.

I also decided to tell my ex sister-in-law about the weird Reddit article I read but it was just wierd, sort of just confirms that... we have absolutely nothing to talk about, haha. I am not even mad or upset or anything anymore. It is like... " oh ok, you're.. just a rando now. "

I sort of like this random high school I am basically spamming right now. They all use the .net ending for their email. That means a few things: They used a cheaper server, and they are focusing on community/networking. Makes sense, it is a school after all, but it makes you think about the schools that utilize .com or other sort of endings like that.

Basically .com is for commercial, so... people who buy that server probably had selling things in mind when purchasing it, also they spent more money so, they definitely selling something...

.gov means the information is protected by the state/country.

.xyz means they're a Russian hacker, haha.

edu.. well, they were trying to get all schools to jump on this bandwagon but I don't know why it wasn't implemented.

Org... wow, too much. I feel like only assholes use this.

I took a break to look at Natthew's Instagram... *sigh* he is the pinnacle of handsomeness. I sent him a google translated cheeky flirt message. I am a human so, I know it wouldn't reach a god like him, but it gives me a bit of energy so I am selfish enough to do that.

I know it is a really naive point of view. I am sure his life is really difficult and some rando sending him stuff is probably just trouble for him.

Meh, it is the next day now.

I happened to find a nice temp work app I am trying to apply to, it is called "Instawork". I tried to do something similar in the past but it was so janky and not legit compared to this app. The only down side or.. well it is a good thing because it makes it more verifiable, I need to send references for my previous job positions in order to qualify for some jobs.

This has always been a daunting barrier to getting employed because.. I don't fucking know anyone other than my family and 80% of my family are narcissists. They're all so self absorbed, any time I ask them for something it is either a great inconvenience or they're just too busy.

Sadly, the only option I have is reaching out to random people on the internet and hope that someone will be willing to help.

Ah! I am so lucky! a few people are helping me out, it is giving me some hope. Hopefully they just have to click a button or something to confirm and aren't going to have to go through a phone call.

Unfortunately though, am going to have to run errands with my mom. I am trying to mentally prepare but, I feel like it will be a bit easier now that I know a few people are actually on my side and it isn't just words.

I am having to go to an appointment where... people are saying they're helping but it is all just lip service and they're using me to gain money for their company. But since this is the only reason my mom is allowing me to stay with her, I am reluctantly complying.