Mystery Items

I don't know why but I felt like, the last little bit of information I needed to ask Jahon was whether or not the bag of tomatoes on the kitchen table were from him or not. I only asked that because I half way wonder if my mom doesn't tell me when/if I get visitors, or I don't have faith in her doing that.

I also randomly found a paint stir stick in my room on the window sill last time. I cleaned my room previously and don't remember seeing it there before so I wasn't sure what that was about.

I didn't want to talk to my mom about it either because... It's hard to explain but, I am not invested in what happens to this house? Like, I didn't want to open the can of worms.

So, I asked him these things on the off chance that perhaps he was the one who did some of these things.

An invisible man walks around your house

Ok then. Thanks for giving me the creeps now. It is probably my brother or my sister in law, but I.. like I can't afford to care at this point. I still need to get ready but it is such a chore. I need to charge my phone and, due to my own bad habit I keep detaching it from the charger so I can lay down and utilize it.

I do have more energy today so, I don't want to waste that. I don't know if i should look for a bra in the massive piles of clothes in the garage. I really feel like I need to do my todo list faithfully. I mean I am creating a big stink about everyone and I guess "venting" which people say it is healthy to do, but it has wasted my time enough.

I forgot what I thought in the shower, there was something I was wanting to do today. It was sort of mid importance so it is kinda crap I can't remember. I need to leave the house but I feel like.. Ah I know what. Also it is kind of funny, I still have bas in my phone so I guess it will be shut off tonight at midnight.

Just in case though, I am going to download a few videos on youtube.

Ugh, it is kind of sad that I have no goals/tasks laid out for today because I've been such an emotional mess. I am probably going to think of plenty of things when I am out of the house.

I am just writing just to get momentum of thought for right now, I don't really have no idea what to write, it is more out of compulsion that I need to finish this post rather than leave it as a draft. The only things in draft are things that I have opinions of that I am not sure anyone would need to know.

I am sort of thinking of how I am going to raise the 800 dollars for the deposit. I already asked my aunt and she said no or, she rather drag it on before giving anything.

I think I am just going to do the todo list on my phone while walking around. That's probably going to be the best. The fresh air is going to give my brain some ease.

My hand has been getting a bit of cramps from writing but I think it is the way I am sitting to be honest.

Ok, I think I am all good. Write later~