LOVE ME

I guess you can say i'm difficult or so i've been told but that just sounds like it's coming from someone who doesn't know how to handle me my apologies if you find me a bit too challenging i mean i'm sorry i'm sorry that my past ptsd from my past relationships causes me to think that you can't be good to me you say i'm being a detective but i just think i'm being protective excuse me, if my tone of voice is a bit aggressive i'm just reiterating the fact that i was never the one to mess with i mean i'm sorry i let it happen again i let past experiences where shitty ass men dictate the way i interact with you and i really want to trust but it's obvious i still have some issues i need to get through i never said that loving me was going to be easy but if you're going to do not excuse my assertiveness for inability to be submissive i just know what i want so i'm making sure you understand the mission listen.

I know that i am no walk in the park i am a lot to handle and sometimes i'm overly sensitive so some days you may feel like i'm not even with you but on those days i need you to make sure that you don't take it personal i'm not saying i won't work with you i'm saying i'm saying that sometimes i need a little more reassurance than normal i have crippling anxiety that i don't necessarily speak about so i hope it doesn't bother you when i ask you to bear with me

I hope i'm not asking for you for too much when i ask if you still like me because last night while we were asleep you let go of me a little bit too quickly paranoid i know i never said it was easy to love me but my love is rewarding so if you're going to do not mistake my need to be loved out loud for insecurities trust me i know that i have wife written all over me my table is always full so if you're going do not excuse do not mistake it for insecurities i know that i have wife written all over me my table is always full so if you're going to sit down and enjoy this meal with me.

I need to ensure that you're willing to learn how to love me properly and i've never been one that was afraid to speak so and days where i'm a bit too quiet or it seems like i'm a bit out of it hold me because anxiety doesn't always tell me why she's visiting hold me because anxiety doesn't always tell me why she's visiting and tell me every time that you think i'm beautiful because compliments from you feel more like confirmation that it's going to be a good day.

I want you to love me enough to teach me how to love you and i'm not saying teach me the basics i'm saying teach me the love that was uniquely made for you i was uniquely made for you tell me you love me tell me you miss me at 2 p.m when you're busy you know in the middle of your day when you have a whole bunch of thoughts at the forefront of your brain remind me that i'm still important enough to think about in the middle of chaos.

If i am your love then i need to feel like i am more than just a friend no i am not being needy no i am not being needy i need you to be here with me i never said it was easy to love me i know we're grown but i still like being babied and i still want to feel like you're crushing on me even after you've had me i never said it was easy to love me but if you're still going to then i need to know that you're willing to love me properly thank you.