Love, Desire, and the Ache Within

I have never tried to write on such topics, so this article will be the first of its kind regarding my new approach to writing, hoping to write things that will help me express what I think and try to understand many of the things I am trying to understand.

I know for sure that what I will write will be inferior to what others write, but the attempt is necessary and the bold step is very useful to get out of the usual writing range, and caution never helps, and as my favorite writer Charles Bukowski said: “Cautious writing is dead writing.”

First of all, we all know that writing may not fully describe a feeling for many reasons, either because of the writer's inability or weakness or because the matter is too big to be reduced to words that underestimate the right and power of the feeling. You will come out of this page with a light mind and soul, I will not burden you with long words or heavy phrases, all I want is to mention simple things that may be easy rules in order to understand and explain everything I want to say.

The reader may feel surprised by words that express what is on his mind, this surprise may last for a long time, but inevitably, in the end, it will disappear as if he did not read anything, on the contrary, in terms of feeling and emotion, whenever a person recalls the memory of an incident, the groans are long and exhausting, holding the breath, tears come to the eyes, or a smile invades the forehead with a tired stiffness, or a bright smile on the face, yes that happens whenever the memory returns, because the overwhelming feeling is too great to forget.

Now let's talk about the greatest of all human emotions, love.

Love has many meanings beyond my ability to talk about and list them here, but the highest meaning of love is to be alive, alive in the outer and inner meanings of the word.

Of course, this meaning is not only between a man and a woman, this is much broader and more comprehensive than this brief look, and love is not a luxury, but an urgent necessity to remain hopeful that one day this misery will end, that the huge rift that distorts our world will be healed in a way that will heal hearts and souls, that every sorrow will give birth to joy, and every thorn that time will turn into a captivating rose. that every sorrow will give birth to joy, that every thorn will be transformed by time into a captivating rose, that safety and tranquility will be the law of the land, that we laugh often, that we say goodbye to things that drain us, that we live always in love, and that everything but love must be exiled forever and ever.

There are those who need a lover, there are those who need the love of their children to strengthen them against the harshness of life, there is a friend who always needs the love of his friend and companion, there is a marginalized person who wants you to extend a hand of love to him at the time when he is drowning without finding a savior, and all this need is a human instinct that we cannot control, it is greater than being governed by time or place, and all this need is a human instinct that we cannot control.

Love yourself and others with sincere love that makes you feel peaceful and safe, life is heavy and unpalatable unless you are loving and sincere in your love.

There is nothing more powerful than being loved, nothing opens one's appetite for life like love, nothing stops the bleeding of misery and distress except love, which gives you hope and a proper view of things and people.

We read a lot of novels and stories that keep us in constant amazement in a way that makes it all seem so fantastical, the reality is even more beautiful, there is still goodness and intimacy between people, just stop frowning and you will notice a lot of daily situations that reassure you that people's love for each other promotes the healing of our despairing outlook on life.

In recent years, I felt like I was killing myself every morning a thousand times with my miserable and troubled outlook, but thanks to God, I took on the responsibility of loving myself and dealing with life and others with fairness and honesty, and so it evolved until I felt faith and hope penetrate my soul and explain a heart that despair had almost killed repeatedly.

Then do not forget the love for things, no matter how valuable they are, no one will know how you feel about them except you, they may be tangible things of ordinary value to others, but their impact on yourself and your strong attachment to them makes them sacred, and this means that love and attachment are deeper than all views and interpretations, attach to whatever you want, you need what makes you happy, passionate and ecstatic with joy and pleasure. Hold on to the one who always strives to do the things you love, hold on to him, your happiness will be doubled and he will make sure that your joy is his priority that he never neglects.

Let's leave love here and talk about desire.

Desire in its broadest sense is being willing to want something and strive to achieve it at all costs, and anyone who has a sincere desire will not back down until he achieves it.

I find many times that feeling desire is needed so that your passion for life doesn't die. Suppose you don't desire anything and your existence in this life is limited to: If it comes, it's good and if it doesn't, it never hurts, how monotonous I feel just talking about it.

Human beings are very fragile beings who may drown with a mere twinge of despair or may live with a gesture from a stranger who triggered in him the desire for things that have always appealed to his heart and mind.

The desire to reach a feeling, no matter how it ends, is worth it, the desire to reach a rank is worth more and more, all you need is to open your heart and mind to your desires and you will truly be a person who lives as he should live.

Let's talk about desire in a very poetic sense, and by that I mean the emotional desire for things that makes them speak for themselves, make their presence known, and overwhelm as if they were going the way you want them to go.

Have you ever felt that you want to hug something, it doesn't have to be external, your desire may be internal and you feel like you want to close your eyes and hug it so tightly that you feel like you're holding yourself and squeezing it in your arms to fill your lungs until you're reeling!

I doubt that every one of you has felt that need that pushes you to do something unexpected and out of the ordinary just out of desire. Sometimes when I mingle with others, I feel the urge to touch a scar on someone's forehead, to feel a wound that is healing, to kiss a tear that has just fallen, to touch a shoulder that is shaking, to give in to the wildness of the moment, that desire pushes me to do so without thinking about the consequences, as if I am obligated to do so.

The happy ending of things is what deepens one's pleasure in order to continue following one's sensual and moral desires, and the greater your desire, the stronger your pleasure will be. The deprived dead alive is the one who makes it difficult for himself, imagining that following useful and happy desires may drag him to other things he does not need, those who are called pleasure killers should taste it for a moment and then think about whether it is worth the risk, and they will not lose anything, it is something that if you reach it and reach your happiness will be psychologically delicious, and if you do not reach it despite trying, it will be an experience for the next experience that will be smoother and more enjoyable.

The ecstasy of the soul that comes from the fulfillment of desire is something to be thankful for, for the gift of feeling that makes you distinguish between things and their differences.

I will now deliberately conclude my article by talking about pain, pain in all its psychological, physical and spiritual aspects, perhaps this will make it easier for the reader to understand that the talk here will be beautiful despite the prevailing view of pain that there is nothing that makes it beautiful no matter how much the writer philosophizes and elaborates on it.

Every being on the face of this earth knows the literal meaning of pain, because life without pain is impossible, you will not be happy unless you are in pain, you will not feel the blessing of health unless you know pain, you will not be pure in spirit and soul unless you have a moment when you feel that the pain is almost tearing you apart.

One of the biggest advantages of pain is that it makes you differentiate between feelings and situations, and then once you come to terms with it, you will feel that you will like it, perhaps if you think that this feeling will make you anticipate things and study them closely and make every step of recovery a lesson that, despite its bitterness, will relieve you of the burden of the next one you expect.

It is not strange to feel the pleasure of physical as well as psychological pain, perhaps because one has reached the stage of taming oneself to things that must be faced, no matter how much one runs away from them, they will hit him or her.

The real confusion is when someone thinks that he does not deserve this bitterness or that he is too weak to face it, and rejects it because it drains him, yes, no one denies that, but when you try to listen to this pulse of pain or feel your heart for a moment and then wonder, is there more pain than what I am going through? Is there a more destructive bitterness than what I am experiencing now, well, I am not telling you that you do not have to feel anything, it is simple and controllable. I'm not saying you shouldn't feel anything, it's simple and manageable, I'm not saying that, I just want you to listen to what's going on inside you, whether you're mentally or physically exhausted, it's worth a try, and I won't give you a complete guarantee that you'll come out of your pain with a lighter spirit, but the more you realize the depth of your pain the more you can help yourself with its needs.

Let's take it a step further and talk about psychological pain only, because a person would rather lose part of his body than lose part of his soul and spirit.

We all have psychological pain, which we may admit or deny, but it is always on our faces, and it appears to others in a way that deserves pity.

In those moments, he feels as if he does not dare to think of things to relieve him because of the greatness of what he feels and because the matter is serious beyond what is usual and possible, his mind stops thinking and all his sides stop moving and managing, and every groan takes away a large amount of his life, and in every split second he wants everything to disappear, himself, his pain, the people around him, the whole world, and everything to be reduced to nothingness.

The search for a solution or what restores a person's psychological balance may be exhausting, or it may be easy, but it needs one's sincerity to search for healing.

Dealing with your pain as inevitable opens the doors to meditation and thinking that I have to stop glorifying it, it is okay to recall it or even groan in your mind or reflect on it for a few moments that may turn from being sad to a smile that pats your soul and your face.

Thinking about bad things disrupts the work of the mind, exhausts the heart, and makes life impossible, and ignoring it completely may drown you in illusion until you live without feeling or conscience, so life requires balance and a corner here and there

I will summarize it by saying that pain is a gift and a test, whenever the pain pulls you deep, catch yourself, take a deep breath, and say, “Let's take a break to the other path, the path of contemplating the grace of pain.