Lost my vCard at 17

So yeah guess what I was about 17 years old still in high school and it was my second to my last year of being at the school at17 was was not my last because I had to be there for five years anyway that’s not the story .the thing is that at 17 I went to the mall a lot and did all my galevantin thier .I was also online dating so yes I met my online dates there . You betcha I used online date if sites to find all sexual parters . People in high school said never have sex with some one at the school so I had no other choice but to do it online I was a homebody and still is . you can leave me alone about that because I still haven’t learn my lesson but I can’t seem to heal my scars .

he had a particular ego about him.

So one day I log in and I see him several times on my page. This site basically showed him on my people you want to meet list every single day and kept showing him every time I logged in and look for locals to me and so I was like why do I keep seeing him , what kind of voodoo is this . so I happened to message him first he happens to respond and then we happen to meet up at a local mall. This dude name I’m gonna call him Desmond. I meet Desmond at station near where he lives . I liked him so of course I did the usual and tried to look good . I’m wearing a nice outfit while I’m in a nice skirt that’s white and black with a slit on the side and a Black tank top that looks as if it’s a bra but it’s really just a shirt. I also have on my Godiva genie hat that’s actually a bonnet because I was trying to put on a look but you probably would say was ghetto and true.

It was Set the first time I met him I looked at him and I think God he is so fine and beautiful and I wish he was mine but that discussion the day I saw him basically defined our whole relationship and he was young at the time so he wasn’t thinking bout cuffing . Desmond was a year older than me and I thought we was both just trying to kill time.

It was awesome and he was as tall as I was . So People, we went out that day and had a nice time walking to the mall and having a conversation.he took a picture and Desmond had a great personality ,he knew how to dress his walk was so mean and his voice was sexy but he really didn’t think anything of me. I found this out later on and I will tell y’all about that next .

So at this time we met around his birthday and he just turned 18 and I thought the guy just wanted to hit it and quit it so the next day we met and yes I gave up the cookies on the second day yes I’m that fast y’all . yes I was a easy ass female and I’m still trying to pray about it. It’s the second day and we basically have a nice day at his house he goes to use the bathroom … I see his I’d on the ground and I literally said well it’s his fault so I pick it up and Check it to see if he was a legit liar . I see that he’s not the type to lie about who he is but he was really that fine so I thought he was sus.

So anyways he done using bathroom and we’re done talking and he gives me one of those smoke shotswhere you blow it into the person mouth . It really hit me and turned me tf on . I felt so good , I was already horny as hell so I’m already ready to go so he already looked at me like you know ,let me hit it . I was telling him “well its my first time “and “I never did this before “. he said something like “oh well it’s your decision and your choice it’s whatever you feel just let me know “.

So after I sat there and ponderd the concept for several minutes I look up at him and he got His butt out for some reason . Some one told him he could catch a gurl like that cause he knows his butt is tentalizing . he had his pants off and and just his shirt looking out the window like I’ll give you a minute while I look juicy over hear being nonchalantly ready . I was looking straight at his two Patty cakes and I was like man he trying me but he looked delicious so I was done thinking. I had to make sure I was going to be okay after I left cause empath can eat a lot of energy . I even asked how many people he been with already. so we get into starting position and oddly enough we was in missionary because he was so sweet he didn’t do it doggy style like I know he wanted to .he was really gentle ,he said it was going to hurt and he took his time getting in there and it barely really felt like anything was that was hurtful painful and I just felt like the day that I lost my virginity was the day that i reached a blessing . My spiritual journey with myself really beginned .

Most people when they lose their virginity they say they didn’t like it and that it was awful and that it was I guess bad or awkward and they regret it . Some people don’t even have a choice and block the memory . I could honestly think back and be content. I would say that Desmond really made me feel like I was special.

The next day I called him and got mad after one missed call because i forgot people had lives and I was the insecure type and basically blocked him off all social media and deleted his number. That same night he called me asking me why did I use him like that and I laughed like , So we fuckbuddies playing games and This started five years of on and off sexing . All I knew was when it was time to sex He basically always hmu with the three word’s what you doing.