It’s been awhile.

It’s been awhile since you’ve haunted my dreams and took over my mind. I think the medication is working on over time. It’s making me tired and I can barely get out of bed. I guess it’s better than getting lost inside my head.

Although, I miss the conversations of you telling me the depths of the world and how we are losing sight of the true God in this world. Jesus came to defeat the devil and I fear we are bringing him back. There are multiple people being attacked. From gun shooting to famous rituals. Why would we ask such a thing back into our lives if it takes us away from the light of this world. Jesus. Jesus came to save us. And now we are being defiant and naive for what he has done for us.

I get we weren’t born of that time. And some say same-sex marriage is out of line. Love is the answer it will always be no matter how crazy the world may seem.

So, I say the hell with the devil let’s keep him out of context. He isn’t the answer to our happiness, God is. He proved that long ago. It’s okay to go stir crazy as long as you reap what you sow. Come back to a better way. There’s so much more to life than seeking revenge.

I don’t think that it gets you anywhere to cause harm on another just causes harm to the brain being in a dark place. With no where to go but deeper into pain. It well wreak havoc on your soul trust me I know.

You won’t be able to get out of that place until you believe in the light and start asking god for it. Not just for forgiveness but a renewable mind.

For me, I didn’t get it all at once. Slowly hes been giving me pieces of it and sometimes none at all. I’ve learned to be okay with his divine timing.

Knowing he’s always had my back. Since I was little I could name a time I felt alone. And he gave me a mind to occupy my time an imagination. Slowly I’m getting it back.

I rather use my imagination for something positive them use it to occupy it with fear and scenarios that lead me nowhere. I hope the same for you if your struggling with your mind. I urge you talk to someone and ask for help. It’s okay you’re not crazy if you want to be a good person.

I always squandered at the thought of being a good person. Making sure I was every step of my life no matter how far or lost I became. I always found my way back to being one. This isn’t something I always practiced but was instilled in me ever since I can remember. It’s a gift to be a good person. And to know good things will come if you just keep the faith.

Faith has been something I struggle with. It's hard to keep the faith when you mostly don't believe in yourself. Its hard to keep faith when people are dying tragically all around you. So, I say keep going instead. No matter the circumatance never give up on yourself. You never know where it may lead you.

But most importantly, the answer we all need is care, care about why that person is going through such hard time. Care about why someone is lashing out. It has to do with more you then them. If that doesn't work at least you tried and the resi is in gods hands.