If I was born with you

If I was born with you what would have been the difference?

If I knew, where could we have been?

You used your cloudy fingers to trail your way to deep to my soul , you're handsome not just handsome, like a being beyond sculpture, if I knew a way to get close to you I'll be ready to do what it takes just to be close to you. You know we humans has classified, have portrayed a perfect partner, everyone wants "the perfect one, and who will be with the trash, the waste".

Everyone thinks of the future, they say:"I want a partner who'll grow with me, who'll plan our future, who will do this and that" "why don't we desire a partner who is?".

Today if I tell you that I didn't fall in love ,call me a LIAR. I fell in love with our philosophy teacher, I swear if I was courageous I would have done a lot of things to the world, I could have saved life. If only I had the courage to meet my philosophy teacher and tell him that he teaches well, beyond his eyes I saw crystal shells, they beckon for attention, they yearned for the understand of the soul, yes I saw right through him. Some people take him as someone who's not normal but what my eyes saw was a flower growing in a Stony island, maybe that's the flower I saw in my dream, it was together with another one, y'all know this one "daffodil" but the other flowery I couldn't guess the name, I had no idea of what it was and the person beside me was about to tell me before I woke up, maybe He was the one, because he knew that we were going to meet and here we are. How do I tell him "do you remember me?". When he was addressing me while teaching I told myself " I've found another me" when he was explaining, he was in another dimension, his smile was witness of his love for philosophy. I didn't see an abnormal person.

Few people today hate what they do, it's rare to someone who's so passionate about their work. Everyone wants money, forgetting about the beauty of time. I don't blame anyone, Nobody wants to be poor.

Everyday I ask myself what do I want? ,What do I really want? I mean without the influence of anyone, what's my purpose "I don't know".

I no longer know me, everyday I get lost in thoughts, scared of myself, scared of being another me. I have a lot of things on my mind like falling in love but wait I can't stand insect, is it now the wind that'll be able to withstand.?

His very handsome, I easily love, some will say because I don't know what I want on the contrary I want to be like Rose in The tale of Rose, ready to live the moment, to live in it. I've not kissed anyone in my life and I do wonder how it will feel.



The thing is am not courageous like Rose, I fear a lot, am too scared of mistakes but I know that without them I won't be able to evolve "in to the real me". Some people have pictured the perfect age to love but I want to ignore that lane and create mine, name mine and follow my part.

His handsome, yes he is but he needs someone, to be sincere with you all I don't no what love is and it's like am using attraction to cover up my feelings. "Y'all, if we all live , plan for the future who is for the PRESENT"?, I'll be the one.